those walls

" You know youre my saving grace, I hope it wont fade away. I still see the halo in you"

Seems like gravity getting stronger till it pulls me on the ground again. But im still gonna raise like a skyscraper. Im not gonna surrender. Im not gonna put my guns down. i know i still can go through shits once again in the dark.

Thank you "bloods" for making me feel unfitted. Making me remembering those lullaby. The lullaby which have the black history. Which were never bring me the light. The light towards future.

I really hope one day i could be the princess marrying the knight than the prince. Love cant bring you far. Love cant make your stomach full. Love cant buy you a car. Love can buy you glass slipper. I let HIM control my life. I doesnt wish to hold things on my hand. Because i know, whatever we expected would never became reality. Being in a relationship with the one you dont love, its alright i think. Maybe you could forget about the man you love (':

Aku sayang kau sangat sangat. But i think, life should move on. Yes its a heartache, but its ALRIGHT !(:

Yes you

" There i was again tonight ,

Forcing laughter, fake a smile.

Walls of insincerity , shifting eyes and vacancy.

Vanished when i saw your face.

All i can say is it was enchanted to meet you " - Taylor Swift

I wonder why you cant accept me. I wonder why you decided not to turn back. I wonder why you given me those reply. I sometimes wonder, have you ever think of me like how i often thinks about you. I dont know the reason why, whenever somebody ask me questions which a lady wanted, my head struck with your name, your appearance, your smile, your laughter and your eyes. The way you stare at me. The way you hold my hand. And the way... you give me forehead kisses :')

I dont know the reason why im posting about you again. I dont know the reason why im doing this once again. And the funny part is , i looked pathetic. I think, you already throw all about me aye. But ill bet, you cant erase me from your heart. Because i live in your life for 7 months. How i wish i could run back to you. Im drifting away. Drifting very far.

I wasnt look like a monkey anymore (: Who keep on jumping or running towards the phone and happily read the Morning messages which were sent by you. Now it seems; every moment my phone rang, i would leave it tills it stop ringing. Because ill bet; it wasn't from you anymore. its from the crooks whom begging for satisfactions.

I must accept the facts that now you were the one who walking away and i were the one under the rain. The rain which ran down the cheeks and scratch the heart. I got one pathetic story which happen to me last week.

I was making a hot milo for my aunt that night. I was stirring the milo powder with hot water slowly. I suppose to put in the sweetened milk ; but i accidentally put in the coffee. I doesnt know what im thinking, but what i know my mind played-back a scene where you and me were fighting. I kept on stirring till at one sec; i look at the the drink , and it turns EYEEEEEEEEEEEW.

My face were like ( -.- ) Tak coooooooool eh.

You know , everything i do , even when im in the MRT reminds me of you. Yes you.

Maybe one day i should propose you in front of everybodeh right ? :P So that you know IHEARTBEATYOU alot. Hah, what am i thinking.

" Sudikah awak menerima saya kembali ke dalam kehidupan awak ? "

:P " WOAH ! Awi dalam sembilu. Aku jiwang siot ! " - shaheizy sam

Salutations Personas.

Yes those moment

"A lady who walks on the aisle, with her chin up and and her confident up high. Looking very vain on her face but bunch of flowers decorated in her heart. A man who took her for granted ; let her dreams falls in the drain." - Enchanted
A man running for a girl is common. But a woman running for a man is a challenge. Dont let her wait just because you know she will. In life, everyone can fake. But at one moment she actually speaks the truth. Just like painting. The picture which were painted, is a story untold. Its just a painting which with fiction colours. But if we search for the reason , the truth reveals.
Sometimes in life, we should think about whats the best. If you think that the best you could do, think again. Because sometimes you can ruin your life. I loath reality. certain moment , i just feel like i want to have a fantasy life. Wheres butterfly were flying sucking my nectar, fly with freedom, with love everywhere. But sadly, everything became an ugly painting.
Looking at those things which were leaving one by one pulls my knee down and make me breaks into tears. HAH, im not gonna cry anymore. The cute little angel who you use to throw, became a stranger which you will never figure out.
Now, im that BITCH you call a brat. I gonna wear that red nail polish, with red lipstick stick on her lips and a 3 inch high heels. Im not gonna let people look down on me anymore. Never will. Im a big girl.

Hearts of a stereo

"If I could only find a note to make you understand
I'd sing it softly in your ear and grab you by the hand
Keep it stuck inside your head, so forever you gonna remember me "
I tried to change. Day by day , weeks by weeks , months by months. Just for you. i could just pray that you would not lose hope on me. I hurt you more than once. Not twice. Not thrice, but more. I couldnt bear to see those tears in your eyes. I cant bear to feel the scars which stain in your heart. But your words always make me want to die. You stole my childhood; i wouldnt want you to steal my present. Because i got this sense of feeling that once you stole my present life, i future would be dull.
Sometimes i just wanted to approach you, and show how sorry i am and how i want you to know how much i love you. But you never give me a chance. Im trying very hard to get close to you. But it seems nothing could make it possible.
Oh personas ; listen to the beats of my heart. Listen to it closely. I hope this heartbeat notes make you realise how pathetic i had been , how sorrow conquer my heart , and also how many times your name appear in my mind.
Sorry i didnt make you proud this year, AGAIN. Im just lost. Im waiting for the sun to rise again.

hah

I watched "Curiosity". WOAH; i learn something new :)

I had learn something about woman organism. INTERESTING RIGHT ? I know right ! Im wasnt being horny, but i was just "Iwanttoknow".

Here goes. When human ; a male and a female were doing intercourse, the woman body start to feel the tempo when the male is controlling her body. The nerves in her brain , will start to control her whole body till she feels the pleasure at her civics. The organism in her body will spread really fast when she thinks about those moments she got with him. Her soul would eventually when flying when the situation is happening. Both would feel the pleasure after a few interaction. The male , would force in his "bro" towards her ; till he reached the maximum; which is her smallest area inside her; which were called the civics. After a few interactions; she would feel the pleasure. And the most funny part is ; both party would feel those "FLYING PLEASURES" for just 20 seconds ! OHMYGOD -.- After erections ; the sperm would enter the virgina till her mesuration area and straight to her ovary. Thats how baby were form. This was researched by scientist in USA , if im not wrong. They use a couple as an example and a late 20 woman as their research. Its sinful for Muslim people to look at those; but this is for research about "Why having sex is fun?" The purpose this "sex" is fun is because ; most percentage in our brain ; which is the nerves gonna controls our body as the interaction happen to touch the sensitive area on human body.

OHMYGOD ! 20 seconds dudeeeeeee. Its better if you do it on the first night with your husband whom is a virgin rather than, sorry to say, man which had no future in life. RIGHT? Hah. what the hell. That is sooooo fanneh ! I still cant believe its 20 seconds. twenty ! I guess its better spending TWENTY seconds with the one ; which surely brighten your life rather than wasting that precious short moment ; with somebody useless and leave you for the WHOLE OF YOUR LIFE !

For Non-married couples who planning to do this "FUN" thing ; think twice. Would you want to feel the pleasure for T-W-E-N-T-Y seconds ; and had to carry a baby for your whole life ? HAH. Use your brain.

Sorry if this is kinda "KINKY" ; Salutations personas (:

Marry the night

I gonna marry the night. The night where theres a bright moon, bright star , waiting there for me. Where the future shows me the path. The path of greatness which were God's creations. I guess im not the only one hurt tonight, the day before or the day before yesterday. We were born to be imperfect. But i already tried my best.

I was chasing for love; but when will love come back running for me ?

Full of hatred and disgusted, when they being cheap. Those crooks will never live happily. Would never live with a happy ending. They came back to get their lust desired satisfied. I aint a bitch. I aint a whore whom you think i am. I do look wild; without any dreams to chase, had nothing left behind, had no support to hold ; BUT i still got my stance. Your wisdom , you pride , your dignity, will one day fall down the drain. I wasnt cursing , but im confident that God is fair. HE wont let us fall. HE will protect us. I know he will. Humans disappoint me too much. Im afraid if im gonna drifting away. Im afraid i may lose the light. The most thing i fear, is to lose myself.

Theres nothing left behind ; i had nothing to chase. But im thankful ; im still standing. Although im not standing straight ; im still standing. Ill show the world , i way better. Too much shits, actually made me a better woman. For those crooks, NEVER TRY ME. Im way intelligent than you do.

We fall in love at the same timeeeeee

We fall in love at the same timeeeeee :D YAY ! Buuuuuut, theres a problem. We dont get the guy we want :) But its okay pussey, we still lesbiaans which forever intact(:

Guess what , we slack till 2am almost every moment. Hows cool is that. As per usual we when hotel lapan-puluh-satu. Chey chaaaak, dont even think about it :P

Theres alot of thing people dont know but we know. I guess we know more about each other rather than our family knows us. We joke together, laugh together, and even do something stupid with teachers. We are rough, but people dont know what had been hidden behind closed doors. Sometimes i felt sad, why dont we get what we want , why we had to see those things, and why are we living this way.

She founded her answer, but where should i find mine ? Sometimes, when things screw up, we had noone to turn to except for each other, Nobody understand us, nobody can figure us out, and nobody had known what our life was like.

Our life, our money, our relationship, our family, all hidden behind closed doors. We grew stronger each day. We aren't gonna give up. We gonna show the world we can rise up from the ground. Just like the skyscraper.

We gonna show that we are something. Something which no one know we can do beyond what we can do.

that 28 November at 3am

Are you lying to yourself or its the fact that you are that way ? You made me crazy over you. You told me to forget you just like that? I wonder how. Should i move on by moving on with other guys ? WTH. Do you think it gonna work ? WEEEEEEEEEENGS.

Im just 15, but why do this feeling exist ? Funny hah. My friend said that this is "monkey love". When you got older, you will intend to get sick of loving someone who would never love you back. Funny ? definitely. Very funny. When the time is wrong, you gonna get somebody better But when the time is right, those crooks trying to steal your heart. Funny ? indeed. And we girls , are so dumb to let them enter and break our heart. True ? true enough and well evidenced.

The world is turning. From dark, to light. From humid to snow. From raining to sunshine. Weather is changing, clothes became trendy, and human became crazy. I wanna live my life till the fullest , but where should i start ? hah.

I always thought that im always in the wrong. i feel guilty. But did you ever feel the same way ? Or you always feels that i actually playing with your heart like those jerks and crooks did ? Oh wait , im the same girl like you met right ? Fuh, if that what you were thinking, think twice.

For a moment , where the tsunami just strikes and everything were gone, i feel devastated. I feel like imma loner and imma suck. I almost giving up. My lips , my finger may lie; but let me make this clear, MY HEART WOULD NEVER LIE. If i say, Im honest ; means im honest.

Remember that time i confess something about my past ; hah , that means i trust you very much. I guess, that whats you want.

Oh Ya Allah, terima kasih ataas nikmat yang telah diberikan padaku. Amin.

Sup world

Selamat 1hd muharram 1433 :D

Potassium , today is 27 November. Gosh, the moment where us, you&me hoping to get to that date. Illusion isnt it ? :/ Hah. Cobaan.

See, my ego is back again. Why do i say that ? because i kinda forcing you to love me. PATHETIC KAN AKU -.- HAHA. Macam desperate. Haiyaaah, once in a while la :P

This is what we call life; we can inie-mini-mindny-more and choose guys anywhere , but we cant be sure if the guy we choosing is the right choice. Same goes to the guys as well. You will never know that the girl you're choosing is the right one. I guess you chosen the wrong lady. HAHA. I beat a new record in my own life :P Forever alone. What the hell. Seriously no life.

Tomorrow flyyyyyyyyy away from Singapuraaaaaaaa, oh singapuraaaa, shiny island ..... LALALAAAAA ~ behbyeee small dot, im going to the big island :}

Regrets. Hah, regreting won't bring you back to the past. But i relly hope, you gonna be back soon :)

Remember that 8 November ? Hah. Im so happy that you replied me :D But it became sorrow at night, i got you ; but i lose her :')

I hope she doing fine now. Love you tonnes <3 Toodles, readers. See ya, when im back :)

Resurrection

Resurrection - What the hell does that mean ? :D Haha. Its not a word i make myself anyway. It simply means , an awaken after death. In other words , Mati Hidup Balik.

Kay lets be serious. I had failed in everything. Almost everything. How on earth must i stand back ? I dont know why it seems hard while the other previous years, i could stand up by myself and stand confidently. But this year , it seems different.Everything getting harder. Harder than i thought. Im like a baby with no support.

I wish my family were there , but they were nowhere to be seen. I just hoping they could understand , but it seems as though nothing could make us bond. What i could do is pray for the better, & i'll get what i want. In my whole life , the things that i got , is from the perspiration that i made. I thank Allah for everything. Thank Allah for the strong heart i had , for the strong mind set that i had , the strong heart i had. But although i had this, Im lack in building love. Like i said, im lost if i get a bunch of roses. It seems meaningless ; but actually it hidden many secrets. But to bad, i didnt grow with such environment. If you people wanna know ; i grown up to be alone. Grown up in a messy environment where ego is everywhere. Where violent takes charge. Where fights we in my blood stream.

Somehow i dont wanna see does bullshits ; but God let me see those. All i had to do , is open my heart, my eyes and wash my brain. But wait , how am i suppose to do it ? Im from Good, to bad. From bad to worst.

Im sorry i cant be perfect. This is life ; this reality ; this isnt a SWAG. Isnt dope. this sucks. This sucks ; made me became a better woman. But i cant promise ; i must eat time for this. im sorry i cant make you proud. It wasnt on purpose. Im just sorry.

After lifes

Originally living dead. People didnt know your secrets. They didnt know what you had done. But HAH , they will judge you if they saw you doing something which had no link with their life. And yes , found the word for this people , Nosy.

Seriously sucks. One mistake ; everything gone. I had been done mistakes. Now i seen the moon and the stars. I know what is my limitations. i know who is my brother , my mum , my dad , my sister and bloods ; i guess insulting my past isnt that cool. Im just gonna get ready my popcorn and coca-cola.

I gonna wait for the times which ; you and you and even you get KARMA strikes. I aint perfect ; and so do you , but i guess we are from different faith. Its for you to think about yourself. I realise my mistake. But do you too ?

Don't ever made them cry ; once they cry everything gone. if they are the crystal in your life ; take care of it. I bet you dont want to lose them.

I couldnt cry anymore. Life fucked me hard already. I gone through shits ; and you gonna lie to me ? Damn , you messing with the wrong woman. You would never understand me behind closed doors. everything seems to change. If you gonna change me right now , its too late. Im lack with roses; but wait im strong in green grasses. get things right.

Some moments didnt last

As you know , theres alot of moment didnt last forever. But well , i couldnt move on from you :/

" Eh idiot ! Why you so stupid. So young leiiiii "

Thats what they say ; but oi ! i dont give a damn <3 I never know fighting for love is the most difficult thing to do. And OH ! I heard you moved on :D ThankGod. May you be happy.

Love is actually beautiful. It had to end painful. But at the same time we should know how to be a little forgetful :D See the links ? Aaaaaaaahh , geniuses ^^Sometimes you may think that ; those moment you expecting for is worth ; but at the same time without moving on is just ridiculous. Right ? But hah ; you sure will be confused :/ Seriously. I speak as though i reached 20 siol. HUAKS.

There thousand things i forget to tell you actually ; You had the best mom ever. I salute her very much (: this is not to attract some attentions ; but its true. She's a real women with red lipsticks on and mascara when up beautiful curves. Her cheeks ; he eyes are so natural. Maybe she could be very ego , like most girls have , but she's the few which on the list of "superwomens" had <3 I adore you very much. I really do. How i wish you're my mom :}

stay confident ayes. Lift up that cheeks as high as possible :)

Im out

I'm looking for a lady whom treat me as their daughter. Who never give up. Show me pride. Show me confidence. Show me how to be a young lady.

I appreciated that she showed me the world. Showed me the meaning of surviving. But somehow , i'm dissapointed. How i wish ; i'm not born and see or hear what you are doing.

Dear Mother ;

I know you're trying hard. But its unsuccessful. I'm proud of you. I love you. I really do. But i wonder why you didn't fight for me ? Why you did those things ? Why you showing me those ? Why mom ? I know theres moments is hard for you , but doesnt mean you had to do that right ? I love the way you strive ; but i truly hate the things you doing.

When it comes to roses ; i'm lost. Whenever i hold it ; i don't know what to do with it. Its seems beautiful , but when its not well taken care of , it seems unpleasant. I'm afraid if i might get lost. I'm afraid if i might be alone. My biggest fear ; is to lose it.

Everyday ; different challenges. Different stages. Different dignity. Different starts. HAH , all we had to do is Go for it. Make life beautiful .

Unseen

Today post is aint just about a story. But about waterflows. Its luminous. Just words.

Slapped. Shouted. Faint. Blood. Screams. Prayers. Knifes. Needles. Alcohol. Happiness. Broke-down. Kept. Cries. World. Given-away. Newborn. Toddler. Crawls. Laughter. Milk. Diapers. Child. Papers. Pencils. Eraser. School bags. Whacked. Punched. Pinched. Wild. Illbrat. Whippersnapper. Grown-up. Mixed. Play. Ask. Unanswered. Watch. Learn. Imagine. Trying. Teenager. Tried. Swag. Fun. Pleasures. Naked. Violence. Hardship. Gone. Left over. Unloved. Careless. Boys. Texting. Brat. Drop dead.

Then two hands up ; arrested. - Criminals - Story untold. Secrets behind closed doors. Full story. Half refilled. No answer.

LIVE YOUR LIFE TILL THE FULLEST.

Salutations.

Ops i guess im sorry

Not all youngsters had their points wrong. Not all adults had their points right. But guess whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat ! You want me to apologies ? :D How amazing is that 0.0 Marvelous ! Spectacular !

Yeah ; im the one who had to give in. Hello ! Saya ini berumur 15 tahun (: Kay ; lets don't talk about age. Lets talk facts okay ? You put a shit in my face and you expect me to kneel down and even apologies ? Girl ; wake up. You ditch my family. Yes ; my family sucks and did alot of shits to your family. But hey ; remember that im not involve. Im still a small kid and what did you even expect from me ? I dindt even know that she done that ? And oi ; i didnt even know that he done that too. How are you suppose to expect that i can know all this things when im just 5 years old ? Are you out of your mind or i am just taking craps here ? Here it goes lady ; Yes i am a woman. I didnt say imma a grown up fine woman ; but i will try my very best or should i say i ought to be one ; one day. I may be an ill-brat right now but i guess you should give me a break. yes i do dare talking this in front of your face ; but did you even listen ? Did you EVEN care ? I don't think so. You didnt even once listen to what my mind say. Because why ? Because you're selfish. You putting a blame on me ; every blame. And guess what ; im a liar. Im a liar because i had to so that i could even survive.

Thanks eh(: You never understand me. Never will. Because what ? Im a freak. Thanks to the people surround me. Maybe i'll give in right now sister, but i guess it wont be long. Im sorry. Im just a adolescent.

Its sunday

When everything seems so beautiful. The lake ; the sunset ; the sea ; the sky and the mountain (:

When i hold a child hand ; it seems as though nothing could go wrong. When i look at their eyes ; its seems that nothing could destroy peace. They were sustenance ; not a jinx in a family.

I am a typical lady ; going around looking for an answer. A questions which never responded. Never answered. But i felt fortunate ; when i saw you(: Thank you Allah for giving me this pleasures on earth. But i think i destroyed it. I don't know if i could get it back. All starts from you. If you accept what i am now ; i guess we could make up.

Kay ; back to my motivations :D Wars ; oh dear wars. What did you get from it ? Nothing people. Nothing. You gonna lose your friend. Your family. The one you adore. The one you idolize. Its all the matter of ; you wanna stop or not.

The moral is that ; ONE must give in. If you know you did something which hurt the parties ; make up. Even you're young or old ; DO GIVE IN. Doesnt matter who is the king. Just give in to make everything run well.

Maafkan aku

Maafkan aku jikalau aku tidak sempurna.

Cintaku padamu setinggi langgit.

In the world; we only given one change to everything. One chance. But if there's someone given you the second chance; do take care of it.

The rain keep on falling. Falling to the ground. But i didnt know if there will be flowers growing from the ground. Doors are close. The key is in your hand. I had been waiting. Waiting for your presence. Crooks are trying very hard. But my attitude put their hands off.

I know you understands me. dreams broke apart. The covers; the guitar and the singer ; all gone just in a sec. I didnt know why it broke. It didnt broke into two. I broke into pieces. is it because of your people ? Or is it because of your mind set. I'm lost.

Words ; feelings ; mind set all going in the different paths but in one goal .

I want you to be happy.

Leaving

K A R M A will strike you. Thats whats some bitches said. I hurt you eh ? Uhmm ; i guess , i made a wrong turn. Dont you think so ? One dog ; world wide thought imma busted . WOW ; how amazing. My heart sticks to one ; hah ; dont believe right ? :> Becaause why ; proven a shits with a named title "Bby&Hubby" in that motherfucking profile. If you could think; did i even write that way ? Oh wait ; i forgot , im actually on the wrong pavement. Right ? People said i hurt you; what an amazing fucking story which actually every aliens and humans believe.

Oh yeah people , this aint a attention seeking post ; but a sarcasm one. See, you people know my name ; know my birth date , my age , but you didnt not fucking know what my heart says or probably knows what happened lately . STOP JUDGING .

Kay ; i think i said enough. Seriously moving on from you is the hardest thing to do. No matter what shitscxczxs ; its difficult to let you go . Those rumors , think about it.

Whether you think ; im lying

or im telling the truth.

Fucking off ;

Ratu Breanna

Questions in my head

I wonder if you would fulfill your promises . If you ask me , yup .. i did . I'll wait for you . For who ? For you my love . If you had been checking my account and see those guys , those are my friend . If you said who are those guys who want to know more about me ; well i guess i just say where i lived at what age am i . I didnt ask for numbers ; i aint flirting .

I love you with the whole of my heart . I seriously did . Yes ; I Love Allah too , that is what you said ; we should love God more than our fellow humans . Right ? So wallah , i did it . I just don't understand the reason why you should do that to me ? Sayang , you moving is it ? If you does , i'll let you go . I will really do . But if you did not , i'll wait till the time come .

I'm not joking dear , i really not . I feel something funny lately . I felt that my heart seems to be feeling restless . I felt unusual . I felt as if i cant hardly breathe . I'm not sure about what is it actually . But i guess ; im hurting by the this poker game call "Love" .

Ps : If you really moving on , text me (: I'll let you go :')

Cross fingers

Bismillah-hirahman-nirrahim .

Insya'allah everything will go just right .

Amin .

Assalamualaikum

Hatiku sakit sekali . Aku tidak tahu apa lagi harus hambamu ini harus lakukan. Kessemuanya semakin teruk. Hatiku hampa Ya Allah . Setiap orang telah mengecewakanku .

Human disappoint us too much . Only God , will help you and show you the true path . Whats amzing is ; you cant see God . But you can feel His presence (:

My heart shattered . I dont know where else to run . Everything breaks . it does not break apart ; but it breaks into small pieces .

Ya Allah ; maafkan lah hambamu ini . Tetapi ; pada hari kemenangan ini , hamba tiada semangat untuk beraya . Tiada guna hamba merayakan hari mulia ini dengan hati yang hampa . Kenapa lah ; setiap hari kebahagian ; ada sahaja kesedihan menimpa ?

" Emak , i didnt need your wealth , i need you to understand me .

She abandoned me . He didnt care about me . She slapped me . He refuse to see me .

What else you want me to do ? is it my fault ?"

Oh Blog ; thankyou for being my friend all along . You meant alot to me (:

With Love ,

Farulynne Syafienaz :')

Ps : And thankyou mom ; for making me feel this way . You had been very sweet :')

I dont think we had much time

We live in the world just for a split moments . We gonna close our eyes very soon and our soul will fly through the top of the world and back to where we actually belong .

To me , my happiness is my first priority . And so do you too . Do you know why ? Ill tell you why . Without happiness , will you go far ? Without happiness , is your thinking straight ? And without happiness , will you even smile each day ? STOP , PONDER AND REFLECT ! Wht will you gonna do next after each obstacles ?

~~

I was going through FaceBook , and saw a post which says ;

" If life punches us ; block and counter them like the boxers did "

Its may sounds ; HAHA . But i believe that that phrase had a strong pillars holding on to it . I kinda agree with it ; Well , we should move on ; and let the past be our motivations and not obstacles . We should be like Mike Tyson (: I somehow proud of him ; maybe as model to the leader of my life . He had family crisis ; which nobody had ever know . He felt of being abandoned by his dad . Lost of mom at the age 16 . His sister died because of heart attacks . You people should read more about him (: Part of best motivators .

To me ; becoming a fighter to fight for your rights is worth a life time applause .. rather than being the outcast in the painted pictures ..

Life is short

Life is short . We dont know when we gonna die , when will the car hit us and run , when we gonna get an illness and also , when will it be the last time we met our loves one .

Here what it is ; even though we arent perfect , arent unprofessional but that isnt mean we cant be what we had ; cant be us , right ? Theres just something which we didnt realise . We keeps on talking about our weakness and ignore our stronger side . yes there is a saying said ; KNOW YOUR WEAKNESS , but you should put your strong side in your head so that your weakness will be stronger . No courage ; where can move on (: Strong ones courage weak ones . OUHKAAY CAN ? Okay :>

Its doesnt matter ; they loves who , they hates who . What you had to do now ; is to live with your swags on :D Who says you cant ; you sure can one :]

Heres again RESPECT

Here my post again ; about respect . We as human being , would never stop doing mistake . Well ; we aren't perfect right ? But that doesn't mean that you shouldn't respect somebody feelings . Okay , lets not talk about feelings , how about the person reputations ? He could be your brother from a different mother ; BUT , he strictly deserved to be respected ! Unless ; he disrespected you , well maybe you shouldn't give him the respect he deserve . Don't miss the conceptions , its does not mean the person could not change right ?

Yes ; the young should respect the older ones ; but what if the older ones disrespected the young ones ? Is that the younger's fault ? Or its the older's foot steps made them that way ? There certain issues we cant fault those innocent kids but we , ourselves had to reflect on our behavior towards the kids whom growing up .

Lets make it a habit ; Every night before going to bed , make our own reflections (: And remember not to repeat it again . Make it as a lesson , not regulations .

Peace out <3

Still not gonna moving

I guess its all about him now . No longer about me :(

If you were reading this ; i wasnt trying to be an attention seeker . But i just want you to know , i cant live without you .

Yes ; we had such an " awesome " fight . And we ended up this way . I had nothing to do with him . For you ; ill end that relationship . I gonna fight for you . You worth my whole life . You worth my ENTIRE life :(

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ! STupid mistake . If i knew ; ill never step on that retarded line .

Okay ; here goes ; I ; Farulynne Syfienaz Binte Abdul Rashid will fight for Muhd Adib Bin Anhar back <3

Mati

AKU BOLEH MATI TANPA KAU DALAM HIDUP AKU -.-

Lifeys

Lifes . HAHA .

Hilarious ? Awesome ? Karma ?

Unpredictable . Crying ? Laughing ? Anger ? HAKs . Seriously unpredictable (:

Kita susah siapa mahu heran ? Kubur sendiri pegang paa . Siapa mahu tolong dari A - Z ? Sujud kaki manusia pun , heran tak ada heran mesti ada punya .

Harsh huh ? Hahhaa :P Random leii .

You given me no lullaby ; and now you wanna me to have a retarded retro music and steal all my Rock&roll music . Oh God ! I can die with an open eyes !

IM RUNNING AWAY .

I thought i told you

Isnt i told you tht my heart is very fragile ? Or should i say , a girl's heart is .

You said that you wont hurt me anymore ?

OIII ! BANGON ! AKU SAYANG KAU ; KAAU TAHU TK ? Aku sanggop setier dengan kao . Didnt you know imma bitch ? That would go around and hurt people feelings ? Why didnt i hurt you ; BECAUSE I FUCKING LOVE YOU ! -.- AHHHHH !

BYEEEEEEEEE !

Human

These is human facts ;

When they found their love ones ; the broke it . When they had happiness ; they ruin it . When they had swagger ; they pimp on it . When they had money in the bank ; they burn it .

Theres something about life ; that had been left untold . Either in the heart or in the physical . As an example ; God will never tell what He had done in your body . He would never tell what gonna happen next . He left in untold ; until the day when He decided to show you ; what He had arrange . OPPS ! Surprised party for you . Nobody would appreciate it ; until when it gone forever . Whatever they said ; is right .. In the world ; nobody had it perfect ; we eat more veggie but the Americans eat more meat . They're pale ; we're coloured . People intend to step on others when the person is so well pieces them .

The question is ; What we suppose to do on Earth ?

They cant see you

We laugh ; we smile ; we enjoy ; we play ; we had fun .. But the weird part is , we'll never know that the person we talked to is actually hurting badly inside . We cant even realise that the person beside you actually wailing loudly in the heart and trying to ask for favors . We never know that the person actually intended to kill themselves . We never did . Because ; we cant read what is kept in the inside .

Everyone had their own personality ; either in the inside or the outside . Don't know whether its bad or it good . And angel or an devil . Black path or white path . Red lights or green lights . Its the matter of understanding . Being a very good lecturer won't bring you anywhere if you kept on talking and talking but nothing came in change . Theres goes to me ; im typing and typing but had made nothing to be reality . It just a matter of expressing and let the world read my silly post .

Some people is seeking for attention without they realising that they are very irritating ; but despite that ; theres even people who seek attention because they ought to ; being forced to . Because they cant think of anything else . As you can see ; thousand of people committed suicide because they thought that ; that is the only solution . A medicine to their cure . A panadol to their headache . Some people want their backgrounds to be left untold so that could maintain their reputations . But until when ? Sooner or later ; they will find out . Just like an example ;

A rude child shouted at an old man ; who walk with a stick . He kept it as a secret till one day ; he did again to an old woman ; everyone saw it . Reputations drop . negative mind set . Its all around everyone's head .

What i am trying to bring down is that ; world is for awhile . Realise your mistakes . Make dreams came true . Fuck your obstacles . Make it a awesome maze . Being a freak ; wasnt the issue . but being a ill'brat , is the big one .

I wanna tell the world that I LOVE MYSELF VERY MUCH ^^ I swear i did . I'm happy with my life . I'm happy with what i got . I can't cry anymore . And i know , its time to show the world my wide smile ! I'm proud of myself for standing with my feet rather than begging for people's knee and beg for favours . I'm beautiful in my way , i know i am . Im better than the others . Im fortunate than the others . Im awesome than the others . And i know im capable rather than others (: Its better to put high expectations into a normal expectations . throw the wide smiles on people cheeks and party rock every time . Dont ever forget about God ; who makes your life perfect . Terimakasih Ya Allah (: Now ; i found my path ; my lights ; my decisions .

Mashiryana ; You the best boobs i never had (: I love the way you are . Thankyou aallah ; for gving me a great friend like her . May we always be together (:

Sunshine

I thought i wanna make things right ; but it seems that theres nothing i could do . I thought of making this blog bright ; and its seems there nowhere else i could write this into .

Theres somethings which love once dont understand ; couldnt understand ; could not make up ; and could not figure out . Oh yeah ! I almost forgot ; im 15 . What can a 15 year old do right ?

Theres is a reputations ; a positions ; a role which everybody got . Conscious-surrounding ; care-giving ; love and importantly respect towards one another .

They said ; i had no sense of humanity which made human being feels as if ; im the baddest . AND HEY ! Welcome to my silly life . Made a wrong turn ; i cant take it back . Being somebody ; huh .. what can i be ? -.- Their eyes ; said nothing but just the word of pathetically . Searching for my own sunshine ; but nowhere to be found . I made a decision ; but they given me a second thought .

Maybe they dont understand ; maybe they try to understand ; or maybe they refuse to understand . But let me tell the world ; Nobody knows about another party ; but the other party know themselves freaking motherfucking well .

I ; proudly present myself ; a 15 year old "kid" ; CAN MAKE A DECISION ON THEIR OWN ! I hate motherfuckers who would show my path . I hate motherfuckers who plan my path . And the worst part is ; i fucking grannyfreaking motherfuckers HATE when they spit fucktards useless sunshine into my face . Sorry if theres to much vulgarities . But that shows how serious i am and how i HATE when that happens . Maybe for now ; im in an insanity mood-swings ; but im know where i am . Which grave im standing ; and i had pride . I'll show the world ; i can stand with MY LEGS & FEET !

Thankyou for reading this ridiculous post ; Salutations .

I donnoe when

As time past ; I FEEL SOOOOOOOOO ; CHICKEN BACKSIDE -.-

I can die with my eye open . But why ? I still don't understand why . Isnt that enough ?

I just want you to love me ; but you always shouted at me .

You said im a slut ; you said im useless ; you said im a brain'dead ; you said im cheap ; NOW WHATELSE ? Let me say this ; I STILL HAVE A VALUE ! I still havee value .. yes i still haveee ..

I dont know who to talk to ; only by typing i can be express whatever been inside . I dont know whereelse to post ; so i just post here . My wonder world . Where everyone is reading ; everyone know my stories . Sorry ; i just can't take it .

I may be bad ; but i'm a mind thinker . You cant see that right ? Why ? You too buzy with all the motherfucking thing that the world given you . What am i to you ? A cute doll ? A soft toy ? Ohh yeah ; just remember ; YOUR BITCH . Right ? Isnt that what you said ? That so sweet of you (: I'M A FAKE ! READ THAT LINE AGAIN ! I'M A FAKE !

I fake my smile ! I fake my LIFE ! I fake my motherfucking heart ! I'm a fake . I wasn't being happy all along . I wasn't have an awesome life . I wasn't being cheerful behind those doors . I WASNT ! I'm sorry if i said ; i''m stressfree ; i'm sorry when i said my family is awesome - they given me full loads of loves hearts ; i'm sorry if i said i'm the cheerful person ever . I'm sorry to whom i lied to . Its just that ; i'm selfish . I'm jealous ; How can you people get such an loving family . I don't care if i were poor ; i can earn my own money . I don't care if i had to wear such a ridiculous looking shirt . I don't care if you feed me plain rice everyday . I DONT CARE ! I just want you to care about me ; love me ; kiss me goodnight and say that I'm your little awesome princess .

You given high hopes ; fat hopes - but now its ruin . I do it for you ; yes for you . But you didnt seem to care . My expectations had been an destroy intentions . And i'm slowly being lost again .. I thought i found my light ; but i started to realise ; that wasn't the light ..

- Dia tidak memahami aku .

Can't stand it

I THINK I CAN DIE WITH MY EYES OPEN ..

Bullshits ! Just goo awaaay -.-

- Frustrated !

Looking at you

Whenever i look at you ; there seems to be something made me feel pity towards you . Theres thousand pillars i ran ahead ; and now you calling me back . You had been hating me for the whole of my childhood moments . And guess what ; I'm hurt . And the awesome part is ; I move on ! Without thinking about what you done to me .

Theres moment where you spit all the vulgar ; and im in deep salt . I feel like punching you . But then i realise ; you should be respected because im younger .

Now ; you need somebody to help you in your life ; everybody walks away . I pick you up ; and held my hand towards you .

I'm not trying to say that im doing good and you doing bad at me ; but i just want the world to know ; that helping someone who hates you the most , doesnt make any harm impact in your life . But it makes you a better person (:

I waant

I also want her to say I'm her princess too . Can you ? :'( Please ?

- I don't know whats going on ; but i'm desperate . I swear -

Maafkan aku

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kwxt3FivPZY

Maafkan aku , bila hasratku keliru .

Sulut ghairah jiwamu .

Ku yang dosakan cinta ; kekasih hatiku .

Sorry if im imperfect . Theres moment i just didnt know what to do .

He

He taught me to be somebody patience . He taught me about loves . He taught me of choosing the right pavements . He taught me about things i shouldnt do even when i'm at the insanity states which nobody dares to touch .

He show me the lights ; he show me the world . He show me the stages . He show me what is treasuring is about .

I'm use to the world called " LOST " ; but he , held out his hand and reach for me and bring me to his world . Whenever i'm with him ; its feels like i forgotten about my world . My untold world . Wheres theres darkness ; bloods and tears . To anyone , he might not be perfect , but to me he is . Although he keeps on saying " No , I'm not ."

I always get mad whenever he tries to show me what guts he got ; but that wasn't my intentions . I didn't did it on purpose . I hate it whenever ; there distractions . Whereby ; somebody trying to break us . Telling that we are not meant to love in such a young age . But these people had to know ; we build it with prides and perseverance and not with emulations which would betray us and abandoned us in the future . They really had to understand ; what does our intentions is ; rather than skip to their hypothesis and make their own conclusions about teenagers now a days .

Yes ; i used to be a girl who always love to play with guys feelings . But i got a reason for it . Nobody did stuff with an untold reasons .

I wasn't in love with what he got in physically only but also mentally . What for if you had a perfect figure but you had the beastly mentally ?

Everyone has their own imperfects ; but with just a little perfections ; made a huge impacts in other person life (:

Muhammad Adib Bin Anhar <3 Thankyou ~

Ps : I'm getting fatter while you getting thinner . NOT FAIR -.-

Althoughh

Although you said i always hurt you ; i .. Farulynne Syafienaz Binte Abdul Rashid ; will show you , that one day , I WILL SUCCEED . I'll make the world for you . If they would leave you in the roadside ; i .. will pick you up . I will feed you . I will care about you . I will kiss you all night . I will change your diapers . And i will give you life .

I may be soft spoken . BUT let me tell you this , i had BIG dreams . I'm not being wild , and frankly , i hate wilds . But you taught me of being one . And you say , i the one who make you like one . How can a 15 year old teach you bloody`shits ?

But its okay . I hate talking bullshits ; those are true . I'll show you . Sorry if i did make you cry ; i didnt meant it . I just cant accept the facts that i had been born this way . I'm sorry . Life had been too challenging . And once a while i feel like running miles away . But you dont understand . But its okay ; i won't lick back my words . I vomit it out ; and i would never take it back and swallow it .

I waited

Dear mama ;

I had waited for hours for your wish for my birthday . But you didnt text me at all . Or even call me . I waited for you like a stupid kid . I remembered my childhood time . I was sitting next to the phone ; and waited for you to call me and wish me HAPPY BIRTHDAY . But you forgotten . Then i decided to call you . But now ; everything changes . I never call you ; i just wanna know ; how much you love me ; like you always said you love me so much . Till now ; then i get to know how "big" is your love . I am not just dissapointed ; but im hurt ; im sad ; i felt that world has no more meaning towards it .

I had been pondering ; what have i done ? Why am i here ? Mama ; although there thousand words of hatred i said ; the truth is ; i do love you . But why didnt you do the same ? Remember when you fought with sister ? When you cry ; i wipe away your tears . When you shout ; i fight away your fears . I still held on your hand through all of that years . But when you re-patched with her ; you forgotten about me . Mama ; i didnt ask for much ; i just need you . Do you know how much i need you ?

I know ; thousands drop of tears also , i will never let you love me . But mama ; i did my best to make you proud . But it seems like you just looking away . You always said ; my words are full of lies ; but do you even ponder about yourself after that ?

Mama ; i thought after i'm out of your womb ; im would be the happiest girl in the world . But you proof me wrong . You didnt answer my questions . But its okay mama ; i'll thrive . Although you always look up on him or her . Its okay , i still love you , sincerely from my heart . I hope one day ; you feel my presence .

With Love ;

Your Daughter .

thankyou

I had the best day of my life .

Thankyou for the wishes (:

What am i to you ?

Okay ; im here to fight for what i think is best . I just need you to answer one question ;

What am i to you ..? Thats all . I wonder what would you answer .

Ihatethis . Iknowright . Bye .

Here goes nothing ~

Here goes nothing .

Sometimes i get confuse ; how to choose a path yow ? HELLO jerks ; im 15 ! Let me spell it for you ; F-I-F-T-E-E-N ! Let me repeat ; FUCKING FIFTEEN ! Get it ? No ? You dont ? Bang your head on the wall . Get it now ? No ? Well ; you a jerk ! Fuckyou laa !

Tired of playing drama . WOOOO DRAMA ! What drama you playing ? Chinese Oprah ? No ? Ohh okay ; Is it a bollywood masti ? No also ? Well ; see .. I'm tired of guessing your stupid " GUESS WHAT ?!" games . Its bored -.- it does not \m/ my ass off .

What ? You showing faces ? Fake smile ? Oh no ? You showing true sweet smile ? Well ; i think stop your POKER FACE ; DOG ! -.- Its irritating . You know it ? yes ; you know right . Okay ; lets get it straight . I'm back to my points ; I'M SICK AND TIRED OF THIS ; I GONNA KICK YOUR ASS UP HIGH ! And here goes ; I ...... BREANNA ... LIVE TO PLEASE HERSELF and NOT you . Thankyou (:

Before you judge people ; better walk through the aisle of hell and run through miles of burning fires before you come to them and gives shits . Atleast ; show some respect .

Damn you ; jerks !

I'm became stronger

As day past by ; im getting stronger . You leave scars ; i break down . But i stand up ; i know what im fighting for ~

Die

I'm about to lose my mind . all this moment , you been using me for your own good . I thought you been there to help me , but the reality was it suppose to be inverted . I guess , people would rather die then looking at you and let you slash them day by day. Sometimes , i thought I'm the most lucky one . But as i think , i was the most " fortunate " one. At a few moments , i thought everyone were the best ,but as eyes wide open , i was wrong . You people backstab me , and leave me in darkness . I had to find my way back home , where lights were flashing . maybe i was born to be bad . Or i was born to be like this . Helpless . They always thought that I'm the badest one ,but the fact , i wasn't . I was being myself , that was what i born to be . I'm not a slut , don't ever say i am . You make me insane , that's why i did the same . You make me down , but i boost myself and be proud of myself . I stand by myself . I did not need pamper , i don't need your applause . Cause it just a lie . I can stand for myself . I swear i can , but if i fall , i will build my own wheelchair and continue striving . You bathed me with blood tears , you bathed me with heartless stuff , but lastly , im born perfect . I'll show you what's battle is . I'll show you , what rights means . I know , i can stand , i know i can shake it . Wait for it .

seriously fuckz

If you making the girl like your dog , its better you stop . Do you know how hurtful is it . The girl had no where to go , with no parents around , no siblings too , and you take her just to make her as your slave . Ohh god ! How I wish , you chocked and die . Come on , realise . Realise how hurt she was . How many tears she fall for her fate . You letting her feel more of suffering . She need a life . How can a person sit and became a doll each day . And you said she a burden to your stress. Isn't it sound ridiculous . You may look nice , but the way you treat her is unacceptable . I may be bad , but I'm perfectly good at everything. I don't need a fucks of you to be proud of her . She can stand for herself with no one at side . I know she is better thaan your son or daughter. I'll pray for the best . I know she's fucking perfect . She may not be perfect like you people , but I know , she had a perfect heart inside . Not like bunch of motherfuckers like you . Say wow . I'm done . This woman , someday , show you , what's life and what is peeservering call .

Me , myself and I

I had big dreams.

Everybody does . But if you , didn't , you are an idiot . What I'm trying to say is , I had dream , not just ordinary but its a big dream . You break it , you die . You spit it , you damn fucks (:

ONEC

ONEC heree i comeeeeeeeeee :D

Hope we gonna get a cool memories there (: Well ; if caan i want a name shorter . But nehhmind ; I'll ask Bhy Era (: " Phenomophone Crew " I like that name as it were mixed with two words " "phenomenons" & "gramophone" . Phenomenon means that we were extraordinary . And gramophone is a antique type of music player . And together we make PHENOMOPHONE (:

As you people know ; we are ofcause extraordinary . We had our own style (: And we cool about it . I know we will succeed ;D

Sorry sorry sorry if i had to menyusahkan anyone of you ; i was damn in a very terible situation . No matter what ; we still meet up and had it together (: No worry .

Laughter

Laugh it all out and then we gonna cry . It just life is . Laugh and cry . Laugh and cry .

- I need a remedy to cure my life . -

Its true that people who always laughing and having fun is someone who had stories behind their curtains . And people who always cry and hurting themselves is just people whom had perfect stories ; they only attracting attention ; for some . Not everyone had a perfect piece . Some had a perfect piece and treasure it . But some ; just didnt bother . Life is like a story on a theater ; we dont know how they practice behind does curtains ; but we see how they act so perfectly in front of us . Thats what human beings are doing . Hiding cries from others .

Majority had a different backgrounds . Minority had the same backgrounds . We just had to receive it although we took to much . No matter what ; we still had to continue living (: Although people look down . We still can be better ; and we still can be stronger (:

I learn how to say " I love life " . And i know ; people don't know what i'm striving for . Because other people life ; is for us to know ; and people to find out .

" I love life ; i learn how to fight ; how to love and how to have my own remedy to make it alive "

Fighter

Because of you ; i am wild . But i won't give a damn . I'll continue striving . I know ; without you , i can survive . I can be a better bitch . I know i can . How do i know ? Because i had build my own pride through the shits you push out . With that ; i know I'm stalwart . And nobody can destroy that pride because i build it with the hard-work . I cried in thousands of pails ; and i end up with tiles of pride .

- Thankyou . You make me stronger ; although with no respects .

What so special about women

What so special about women ?

Women is someone who always be by the side of men . Without her ; generations wont exist .

A real women ; is someone who would stand by her heels whenever she slips and fall in the drain without tears . A confident women ; would always walk confidently with her head tilt up and her nose rise high without being timid and chary . An awesome women ; is when she would smile all the way although she deep pain inside . A brave women ; is when a women is dare enough to go through obstacle and stand for her right .

A strong heart ; strong morality and a strong principles will lead women to happiness . Women is soft ; graceful and yet brave . But usually past ; destroy them . But when she knows ; she had a battle to finish off ; she stands and wipe her tears off .

All women is beautiful . Not just physically but also mentally . Women with a mentally beautifulness ; deserve to own a good life . But if God says ; she needs to go through a hard times first ; then she will be reward with a better life after the fight .

Treasure women with heart and soul . Not an issue if you were a girl or boy just Treasure women with heart and soul . And you find out how passionate she is (:

I feel like a rocketeer

When you right here ; I feel that I'm a Rocketeer \m/

You make me fly around the Universe . You like the stars which makes me stuck the way you glow . And i felt that i could touch the planets and could grab the moon (:

It swear a sad thing that she can't see . With the beautiful thing that been spread throughout the sea . I don't know what you want ; but i guess you need a flying kick (:

[L] ove

[A] ttitude

[H] abit

From care ; you gonna get love (: With respect ; you'll get love . But what happen if you did it but still lack of love ?

From there ; you should make a different with the Attitude . Attitude . Attitude is big word and sure need a lot of effort to have the right attitude .

From all above ; make it as habit (: With these ; life would be a better place to live in .

[ L ] ack

[ O ] f

[ V ] alues

[ E ] explainations

All it need is a few acts and explanations in your act . Everything will just be in FANTASIES .

LALALA

" We like to sleep all day and party all night!
This is how we like to live our lives!
I've got a feeling everything is gonna be all right,
So come on, come on!
Let's party tonight! :D "

I swear i like that song ~ HOHO (:

So today ; felt lame . I'm insane . FUCK THEM ALL . Kay bye .

He said i am strong .

He said i am a positive thinker .

What makes you think i am ; Mr wee ? Its not as easy as you said . It need a lot of effort . Just like you push yourself to reach the summit in Gunung Datuk . But ; you won't feel the satisfactions after those .

Usually ; to many people , She's everything . She won't betray ; she won't abandoned & she will always give her best love to you . But why ; to me , she's different ? Why does she keeps on stabbing ? I'll bet ; if you were me , you would rather kill yourself than watching what type of bitch she was . Why does she making things so hard ? What does she really want ? Why does she said all those ? Why don't it end ? I had nothing . All i had was ; knowledge in school . You wanna take it ? Go ahead . I don't fucking care . But why the smile you took ? Why the heart you slashed ? Why my brain you plant trees ? And why you let me waterfall ? Why you never answer me ? Why you never give attention to me bitch ? WHY WHY WHY ? I'm fucking asking WHY ? Why never pick up those calls ? Why you never care ? Why you let me go like that ? Why you rotten me ? Why you treat me this way ? Why you never feed me ? You know you didn't ; but why you still there ? Watching my life series ; smiling when i shed . Angry when i laugh ? Why you so mean ? I just dont understand .

Dear Bitch ;

No matter what fucks you vomit out ; perhaps my eyes need to be washed by my tears once in a while ; so that i can see life with clearer view again (: Thankyou for making me stronger each day . I hope you answer me one day .

And FYI ; I damn "LOVE" you ;

With love ;

Your awesome lovable chicka .

Believe

What past ; is past (: Let it go as far as possible . Life is nothing we can predict ; life is a surprise . We never know what we gonna face tomorrow ; but we can plan it though .

Some moment we may feel down ; but at very moment we know that happiness is toward us and always there to make us feel high . But why we need so much time to realise this ? Well ; we're human . We need the awesome feet to be around . Without them ; you'll die . You feel yourself like dying and as though no tomorrow be ahead ever again .

Life is full on nonsensical mistake which we made without being matured to think what is the consequences . We as human sometimes felt that we ought to lie ; because of the thinking for not making the other party felt down and disappointed . That is it . We had to make difficult choices . When your head ; your heart and your mouth do not work together ; i'll bet nothing will be done . You suffer in the illness of " Regretting in the rest of your life " . With these illness ; you could not go anywhere as nobody would trust you .

Feeling that people will be looking down on you something unspeakable and also making your confidence go down . But we can overcome it by making yourself feels better . Its difficult to make yourself think positive ; but you ought to as you had life journey to live on . If you give up now ; what gonna happen to your future ? To your loved one ? Gone ? yes ; they be gone .

Building confidence and courage needs practice . As practice makes perfect . With that ; you'll walk like gentleman and also beautiful ladies in the yes of publicity (:

PS : " Although life sometimes makes you feel as though you be dead tomorrow ;

then you should build up your confidence today " :D

♥

Superman♥ Superman♥ Superman♥ Superman♥ Superman♥

Superman♥ Superman♥ Superman♥ Superman♥ Superman♥

Superman♥ Superman♥ Superman♥ Superman♥ Superman♥

Superman♥ Superman♥ Superman♥ Superman♥ Superman♥

I Miss you I Miss you I Miss you I Miss you I Miss you I Miss you I Miss you

I Miss you I Miss you I Miss you I Miss you I Miss you I Miss you I Miss you

I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you

I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you

I almost losing my mind without you ♥

My Heart and Soul .

Fashion show

Fashion Show -.-"

Here comes the fashion show . TOMORROW . Bullshit ! -.-" Anyhow only choose _|_ And some more nobody want volunteer . NACHOS ! Pffft ~! Kay whatever . So tomorrow ; gonna wear the cheongsam above . But different colour . Its pink black . I swear i not gonna be looking awesome ; because no mood (: I gonna make my hair messy and look nuisance . EHH fake ^^ Siao uhh ~ But know ; i gonna look normal . No laughing please . Thankyou .

Wahai ibunda ; saya ingin masuk Madrasah buleyh ? Haaaisshhh ~ Pleaseeee laaa . Saye nak :( LALALALALAALALAA ~ Geraaaaaaaaaaamms . * Akuw merepek . tawuh *

So ; tomorrow night :( SAADDD . Tapy takperh (: In the morning ; meets ^^ Weeky weeky wuuuwuuu ~ Sayaa sukaa sayaa suka .

And weiweiwei ; hate BITCHES _|_ Motherfucking lame . I said sorry oready whuuts ; then still wanna be bigfuck . NACHOS ahh ahlian . I'll be better bitch you know . Sure one . So please ; attitude keep inside your pocket (:

Sometimes ; its better to keep your motherfucking mouth shuts . Because ; keeping mouth shuts doesn't mean you losing (: Believe in Karma ; what goes around ; comes around .

:D:D:D:D:D:D

Superman

This is how my superman will look like when he is in National Service in 2 years time ^^ HOHO ~

I like it <3

Cute kan bie ? Tawuh ^^

Blahblahblah ; handphone masehy belom ader -.-" Pfft ! Patience please . Thankyou ~ So he gonna fly on this wednesday :( So three days Weeky`weekky`wuu`wuuuu alone . Haiyaaahhh ! Nehmind . its just awhile . Awhile only (:

And anyway ; i can't stop gossiping with Kak Kesha :D LOL ! Power`rer ! We gossip about her friend . Her friend like URGHH ! Takda suka liaos . Kay whatever .

So gonna be short and sweet ^^

Sweet like me ^^

Wait wait ! Got story . I met the auntie which last time i scared her -.-" Pfft ! I hope she move house fast !

So ; Adios Amigo ! :D

LALALA ~

Today i am so tired -.-" Because hate running . But i forced myself ; and now backside pain -.-" F --- ! Supermaaaaaaaaaaann ! Saye perlu awak <3

LALAALAAALAAA ; wanna pee ; skalie phone pee first -.- Well done ! * around of applause * Then i decided not to pee -.-" WOIIITS ! Because of you i can't talkie with Superman you know . Very bad sia -.- Suweeey bangat deryh guwe this week -.-"

Macam macam adaa ! Macam astro . Memory yang sungguh GAH sekali minggu ini . Well ; as people said what ; there always ups and downs . PFFT -.-" Then now how to contact him ? GRRRRRHHHH ! Keep it up ayes .

Ohh yeahhh ~ GO JYIAN GO ! Shake ass towards them :D We gonna win the matches ^^ Weeky`weeky wooo`woooo ! Fly STICKZ fly * I still hate the STICKZ nameo -.- *

Bieeeeeeeeee ; rinduuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu :(

Kay booom`pows ! * Wink *

Salam hormat * akuw merepek ;

kay diyam * :D

Camp in Gunung Datuk

Camp in Gunung Datuk was a \m/

Huak huak ! It was awesome yet tiring . I wish i was the lea

der . nehmind . Still got next year ^^ hopefully i'll be . PRAY FOR ME ALRIGHT ? ><>

wesome . But the food -.-" Like that only . I miss rice so much . I look at human ; feel like BBQ them siaa . I miss chicken too :( I miss alot of things . Can't count ^^

And at night ; i miss my mum's cooking & i miss superman . Waa heng i got bring teddy :D Keep me company * EEEEEEEEEEEE ! Someone act cute ^^ * Shuddup ^^

I learn a new language ^^ PHILIPPINES :D Hoho ^^ And i improved my Chinese language :D Do you know how ? Well ; because my group all Chinese pupils . PFFT ! Got TWO jerks . Bull the shits to them -.-" Attitude so the " TOOOOOT " They own-self fall ; put a blame on other people . Ehh ; BULLSHIT laa -.-" Paisehy right ? Pig`style . Eat like

pig . KANINO =.=

Okay enough :D Enjoy the pictures ^^

Ever feel

Ever feel your are the vain ones ? (:

I do (: You know ; whenever you feel as if you are one ; you'll feel that nothing can be the blockade of your confidence . Girls with confidence will always feel good about themselves . And when people gives respect ; its make them go higher . I know ; that girls have to respect themselves first before desiring others to respect them ; but sometimes humans with no brains ; just kicked them on the butt and heck care what others feelings .

Ever wonder ; when one day the one you love ; run away from you just because they had tired of your attitude and for your freaking jerkings bullshits ? Maybe they did that ; and maybe they will not .

I had been 14 years and almost going to be 15 years ; life is being unpredictable . Some people said they understand ; some people said they gone through . But have you stop and think ; how long you gone through that path ? What have you learnt ? Does that had a big impact in yourselves ? Have you change ? Have you been somebody better ? Ever think of that ?

And think about yourself ; Does happiness last forever ? Or just a blink ? Think about the happiness you experienced before ; can you count the days you had been happy ? How long it last ? A day ? A week ? A months ? If you said a day ; you're right . Somehow somewhat ; you'e right . Happiness usually starts now ; then suddenly you feel like crying tomorrow . Right ? It last a while .

It is true that heartache and tragedy happens everywhere . These are things none of us can avoids.

But always remember Suffering is the price of being alive . Be happy with who you are .

BOOOOO

School had started the few days ago . And can you believe what strikes me when i was in class ? " OII ! STUDY LAAA " 0.o I ; myself scary when suddenly i feel like studying the whole school session . WUUUYHHHH ! Ohh pocot ! Is that looks like the old Lynne ? I dont think so . Oh can i say " Ratu " ? Oh my ! I change a lot . And i was looking for a tutor some more ?! Woaahhhhh ! I ask a Mr ; named MuhdFarhanBinSamsuri ; i think so . But then ; he said ; " English has nothing to teach about ; you just have to read books ; magazines . Dont understand the word , look in Dictionary . " DICTIONARY * Blinking blinking magically * Pfft -.-" Ever seen me read books ? Yeah . You did . What type ? Preschool . Yes . You're right . Others ? No . Correct . Bonus points (:

So ; the thing is ; Never read , English won't be improved . So heck care . Do you know why ? Because ; i can speak well during Orals Examinations and also Presentations (: So BINGO ! Quite high expectations to do well . And now POA ; pfft -.-" I don't freaking understand about it . Executives la ; Creditors la ; what la ; this la -.-" Just as if i know ; I would probably take A maths . OH MY ! A maths looks fun you know . Take calculator ; do . DONE . And i'm good at maths anyway . Nehmind * Step relax face * Nehmind . I'll try . And what else .. uhmmm .... Thats all . I think . HOHO >.<

Chemistry ; sounds awesome . Because i love chemicals changes . Physics ; well nature . Some how some what i can find the answer through observations . Maths ; I'm good at it . Geography ; the teachers helpful and give a lot of notes , so relax . I just have to " READ " D: And social studies ; Heck care . Observations is just the skills (:

- DONE - As simple as ABC(: except for the POA -.-"