Hearts of a stereo

"If I could only find a note to make you understand
I'd sing it softly in your ear and grab you by the hand
Keep it stuck inside your head, so forever you gonna remember me "
I tried to change. Day by day , weeks by weeks , months by months. Just for you. i could just pray that you would not lose hope on me. I hurt you more than once. Not twice. Not thrice, but more. I couldnt bear to see those tears in your eyes. I cant bear to feel the scars which stain in your heart. But your words always make me want to die. You stole my childhood; i wouldnt want you to steal my present. Because i got this sense of feeling that once you stole my present life, i future would be dull.
Sometimes i just wanted to approach you, and show how sorry i am and how i want you to know how much i love you. But you never give me a chance. Im trying very hard to get close to you. But it seems nothing could make it possible.
Oh personas ; listen to the beats of my heart. Listen to it closely. I hope this heartbeat notes make you realise how pathetic i had been , how sorrow conquer my heart , and also how many times your name appear in my mind.
Sorry i didnt make you proud this year, AGAIN. Im just lost. Im waiting for the sun to rise again.