Sup world

Selamat 1hd muharram 1433 :D

Potassium , today is 27 November. Gosh, the moment where us, you&me hoping to get to that date. Illusion isnt it ? :/ Hah. Cobaan.

See, my ego is back again. Why do i say that ? because i kinda forcing you to love me. PATHETIC KAN AKU -.- HAHA. Macam desperate. Haiyaaah, once in a while la :P

This is what we call life; we can inie-mini-mindny-more and choose guys anywhere , but we cant be sure if the guy we choosing is the right choice. Same goes to the guys as well. You will never know that the girl you're choosing is the right one. I guess you chosen the wrong lady. HAHA. I beat a new record in my own life :P Forever alone. What the hell. Seriously no life.

Tomorrow flyyyyyyyyy away from Singapuraaaaaaaa, oh singapuraaaa, shiny island ..... LALALAAAAA ~ behbyeee small dot, im going to the big island :}

Regrets. Hah, regreting won't bring you back to the past. But i relly hope, you gonna be back soon :)

Remember that 8 November ? Hah. Im so happy that you replied me :D But it became sorrow at night, i got you ; but i lose her :')

I hope she doing fine now. Love you tonnes <3 Toodles, readers. See ya, when im back :)

Resurrection

Resurrection - What the hell does that mean ? :D Haha. Its not a word i make myself anyway. It simply means , an awaken after death. In other words , Mati Hidup Balik.

Kay lets be serious. I had failed in everything. Almost everything. How on earth must i stand back ? I dont know why it seems hard while the other previous years, i could stand up by myself and stand confidently. But this year , it seems different.Everything getting harder. Harder than i thought. Im like a baby with no support.

I wish my family were there , but they were nowhere to be seen. I just hoping they could understand , but it seems as though nothing could make us bond. What i could do is pray for the better, & i'll get what i want. In my whole life , the things that i got , is from the perspiration that i made. I thank Allah for everything. Thank Allah for the strong heart i had , for the strong mind set that i had , the strong heart i had. But although i had this, Im lack in building love. Like i said, im lost if i get a bunch of roses. It seems meaningless ; but actually it hidden many secrets. But to bad, i didnt grow with such environment. If you people wanna know ; i grown up to be alone. Grown up in a messy environment where ego is everywhere. Where violent takes charge. Where fights we in my blood stream.

Somehow i dont wanna see does bullshits ; but God let me see those. All i had to do , is open my heart, my eyes and wash my brain. But wait , how am i suppose to do it ? Im from Good, to bad. From bad to worst.

Im sorry i cant be perfect. This is life ; this reality ; this isnt a SWAG. Isnt dope. this sucks. This sucks ; made me became a better woman. But i cant promise ; i must eat time for this. im sorry i cant make you proud. It wasnt on purpose. Im just sorry.

After lifes

Originally living dead. People didnt know your secrets. They didnt know what you had done. But HAH , they will judge you if they saw you doing something which had no link with their life. And yes , found the word for this people , Nosy.

Seriously sucks. One mistake ; everything gone. I had been done mistakes. Now i seen the moon and the stars. I know what is my limitations. i know who is my brother , my mum , my dad , my sister and bloods ; i guess insulting my past isnt that cool. Im just gonna get ready my popcorn and coca-cola.

I gonna wait for the times which ; you and you and even you get KARMA strikes. I aint perfect ; and so do you , but i guess we are from different faith. Its for you to think about yourself. I realise my mistake. But do you too ?

Don't ever made them cry ; once they cry everything gone. if they are the crystal in your life ; take care of it. I bet you dont want to lose them.

I couldnt cry anymore. Life fucked me hard already. I gone through shits ; and you gonna lie to me ? Damn , you messing with the wrong woman. You would never understand me behind closed doors. everything seems to change. If you gonna change me right now , its too late. Im lack with roses; but wait im strong in green grasses. get things right.