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I watched "Curiosity". WOAH; i learn something new :)

I had learn something about woman organism. INTERESTING RIGHT ? I know right ! Im wasnt being horny, but i was just "Iwanttoknow".

Here goes. When human ; a male and a female were doing intercourse, the woman body start to feel the tempo when the male is controlling her body. The nerves in her brain , will start to control her whole body till she feels the pleasure at her civics. The organism in her body will spread really fast when she thinks about those moments she got with him. Her soul would eventually when flying when the situation is happening. Both would feel the pleasure after a few interaction. The male , would force in his "bro" towards her ; till he reached the maximum; which is her smallest area inside her; which were called the civics. After a few interactions; she would feel the pleasure. And the most funny part is ; both party would feel those "FLYING PLEASURES" for just 20 seconds ! OHMYGOD -.- After erections ; the sperm would enter the virgina till her mesuration area and straight to her ovary. Thats how baby were form. This was researched by scientist in USA , if im not wrong. They use a couple as an example and a late 20 woman as their research. Its sinful for Muslim people to look at those; but this is for research about "Why having sex is fun?" The purpose this "sex" is fun is because ; most percentage in our brain ; which is the nerves gonna controls our body as the interaction happen to touch the sensitive area on human body.

OHMYGOD ! 20 seconds dudeeeeeee. Its better if you do it on the first night with your husband whom is a virgin rather than, sorry to say, man which had no future in life. RIGHT? Hah. what the hell. That is sooooo fanneh ! I still cant believe its 20 seconds. twenty ! I guess its better spending TWENTY seconds with the one ; which surely brighten your life rather than wasting that precious short moment ; with somebody useless and leave you for the WHOLE OF YOUR LIFE !

For Non-married couples who planning to do this "FUN" thing ; think twice. Would you want to feel the pleasure for T-W-E-N-T-Y seconds ; and had to carry a baby for your whole life ? HAH. Use your brain.

Sorry if this is kinda "KINKY" ; Salutations personas (:

Marry the night

I gonna marry the night. The night where theres a bright moon, bright star , waiting there for me. Where the future shows me the path. The path of greatness which were God's creations. I guess im not the only one hurt tonight, the day before or the day before yesterday. We were born to be imperfect. But i already tried my best.

I was chasing for love; but when will love come back running for me ?

Full of hatred and disgusted, when they being cheap. Those crooks will never live happily. Would never live with a happy ending. They came back to get their lust desired satisfied. I aint a bitch. I aint a whore whom you think i am. I do look wild; without any dreams to chase, had nothing left behind, had no support to hold ; BUT i still got my stance. Your wisdom , you pride , your dignity, will one day fall down the drain. I wasnt cursing , but im confident that God is fair. HE wont let us fall. HE will protect us. I know he will. Humans disappoint me too much. Im afraid if im gonna drifting away. Im afraid i may lose the light. The most thing i fear, is to lose myself.

Theres nothing left behind ; i had nothing to chase. But im thankful ; im still standing. Although im not standing straight ; im still standing. Ill show the world , i way better. Too much shits, actually made me a better woman. For those crooks, NEVER TRY ME. Im way intelligent than you do.

We fall in love at the same timeeeeee

We fall in love at the same timeeeeee :D YAY ! Buuuuuut, theres a problem. We dont get the guy we want :) But its okay pussey, we still lesbiaans which forever intact(:

Guess what , we slack till 2am almost every moment. Hows cool is that. As per usual we when hotel lapan-puluh-satu. Chey chaaaak, dont even think about it :P

Theres alot of thing people dont know but we know. I guess we know more about each other rather than our family knows us. We joke together, laugh together, and even do something stupid with teachers. We are rough, but people dont know what had been hidden behind closed doors. Sometimes i felt sad, why dont we get what we want , why we had to see those things, and why are we living this way.

She founded her answer, but where should i find mine ? Sometimes, when things screw up, we had noone to turn to except for each other, Nobody understand us, nobody can figure us out, and nobody had known what our life was like.

Our life, our money, our relationship, our family, all hidden behind closed doors. We grew stronger each day. We aren't gonna give up. We gonna show the world we can rise up from the ground. Just like the skyscraper.

We gonna show that we are something. Something which no one know we can do beyond what we can do.

that 28 November at 3am

Are you lying to yourself or its the fact that you are that way ? You made me crazy over you. You told me to forget you just like that? I wonder how. Should i move on by moving on with other guys ? WTH. Do you think it gonna work ? WEEEEEEEEEENGS.

Im just 15, but why do this feeling exist ? Funny hah. My friend said that this is "monkey love". When you got older, you will intend to get sick of loving someone who would never love you back. Funny ? definitely. Very funny. When the time is wrong, you gonna get somebody better But when the time is right, those crooks trying to steal your heart. Funny ? indeed. And we girls , are so dumb to let them enter and break our heart. True ? true enough and well evidenced.

The world is turning. From dark, to light. From humid to snow. From raining to sunshine. Weather is changing, clothes became trendy, and human became crazy. I wanna live my life till the fullest , but where should i start ? hah.

I always thought that im always in the wrong. i feel guilty. But did you ever feel the same way ? Or you always feels that i actually playing with your heart like those jerks and crooks did ? Oh wait , im the same girl like you met right ? Fuh, if that what you were thinking, think twice.

For a moment , where the tsunami just strikes and everything were gone, i feel devastated. I feel like imma loner and imma suck. I almost giving up. My lips , my finger may lie; but let me make this clear, MY HEART WOULD NEVER LIE. If i say, Im honest ; means im honest.

Remember that time i confess something about my past ; hah , that means i trust you very much. I guess, that whats you want.

Oh Ya Allah, terima kasih ataas nikmat yang telah diberikan padaku. Amin.

Sup world

Selamat 1hd muharram 1433 :D

Potassium , today is 27 November. Gosh, the moment where us, you&me hoping to get to that date. Illusion isnt it ? :/ Hah. Cobaan.

See, my ego is back again. Why do i say that ? because i kinda forcing you to love me. PATHETIC KAN AKU -.- HAHA. Macam desperate. Haiyaaah, once in a while la :P

This is what we call life; we can inie-mini-mindny-more and choose guys anywhere , but we cant be sure if the guy we choosing is the right choice. Same goes to the guys as well. You will never know that the girl you're choosing is the right one. I guess you chosen the wrong lady. HAHA. I beat a new record in my own life :P Forever alone. What the hell. Seriously no life.

Tomorrow flyyyyyyyyy away from Singapuraaaaaaaa, oh singapuraaaa, shiny island ..... LALALAAAAA ~ behbyeee small dot, im going to the big island :}

Regrets. Hah, regreting won't bring you back to the past. But i relly hope, you gonna be back soon :)

Remember that 8 November ? Hah. Im so happy that you replied me :D But it became sorrow at night, i got you ; but i lose her :')

I hope she doing fine now. Love you tonnes <3 Toodles, readers. See ya, when im back :)

Resurrection

Resurrection - What the hell does that mean ? :D Haha. Its not a word i make myself anyway. It simply means , an awaken after death. In other words , Mati Hidup Balik.

Kay lets be serious. I had failed in everything. Almost everything. How on earth must i stand back ? I dont know why it seems hard while the other previous years, i could stand up by myself and stand confidently. But this year , it seems different.Everything getting harder. Harder than i thought. Im like a baby with no support.

I wish my family were there , but they were nowhere to be seen. I just hoping they could understand , but it seems as though nothing could make us bond. What i could do is pray for the better, & i'll get what i want. In my whole life , the things that i got , is from the perspiration that i made. I thank Allah for everything. Thank Allah for the strong heart i had , for the strong mind set that i had , the strong heart i had. But although i had this, Im lack in building love. Like i said, im lost if i get a bunch of roses. It seems meaningless ; but actually it hidden many secrets. But to bad, i didnt grow with such environment. If you people wanna know ; i grown up to be alone. Grown up in a messy environment where ego is everywhere. Where violent takes charge. Where fights we in my blood stream.

Somehow i dont wanna see does bullshits ; but God let me see those. All i had to do , is open my heart, my eyes and wash my brain. But wait , how am i suppose to do it ? Im from Good, to bad. From bad to worst.

Im sorry i cant be perfect. This is life ; this reality ; this isnt a SWAG. Isnt dope. this sucks. This sucks ; made me became a better woman. But i cant promise ; i must eat time for this. im sorry i cant make you proud. It wasnt on purpose. Im just sorry.

After lifes

Originally living dead. People didnt know your secrets. They didnt know what you had done. But HAH , they will judge you if they saw you doing something which had no link with their life. And yes , found the word for this people , Nosy.

Seriously sucks. One mistake ; everything gone. I had been done mistakes. Now i seen the moon and the stars. I know what is my limitations. i know who is my brother , my mum , my dad , my sister and bloods ; i guess insulting my past isnt that cool. Im just gonna get ready my popcorn and coca-cola.

I gonna wait for the times which ; you and you and even you get KARMA strikes. I aint perfect ; and so do you , but i guess we are from different faith. Its for you to think about yourself. I realise my mistake. But do you too ?

Don't ever made them cry ; once they cry everything gone. if they are the crystal in your life ; take care of it. I bet you dont want to lose them.

I couldnt cry anymore. Life fucked me hard already. I gone through shits ; and you gonna lie to me ? Damn , you messing with the wrong woman. You would never understand me behind closed doors. everything seems to change. If you gonna change me right now , its too late. Im lack with roses; but wait im strong in green grasses. get things right.