ALLAHUAKBAR

Oh Allah,

Kuatkan lah aku. Sakit hatiku melihat dia semakin jauh. Sakit hatiku melihatnya mengejarnya. Mudah mudahan, di suatu saat, dia akan bahagia seperti sediakala.

Oh Teman, maafkan lah aku jikalau aku tidak merelakan kau dengannya. Dia telah mencuri hatiku. Tetapi, pada suatu saat, Insya'allah kau akan mendapatkannya. Dengan rela aku melepaskannya.

Haish

Just as if they know, what am i going through. I wanna be a princess living happy ever after. But look me now ?

Why must i sacrifices ? Sacrifices for family ? For friends ? Or whatever occasions? Why must it be me ? I know , im understanding and easy to go with. BUT , have you forgotten im still a human ?

Life getting older, and its getting harder. Gravity is pulling down my legs.

ALL i can say, PLEASE : I NEED SUPPORT :')

If i were in your shoe

When the whether is hot, everybody complaints. When the whether is too cold, you people complaint again. When you got big house, again you people want bigger house. When you could have everything you want, you throw it just like that.

Thats the reason why we were call HUMANS. We will never satisfied with the things we had. All we think about is more. More and More and More. Have you even wonder, when one day you gonna die. Everything will be gone from your effing life. Everything people, everything. Family, money, cars, swags and even your Iphone. This things wont bring you together in graveyard. Nobody gonna hear you scream. Nobody gonna hear you cry. And nobody gonna help you in there. All is there is you , and the white cloth. If you did good in earth, you gonna bring your good deeds along. The good deeds gonna help you later in future.

Your parents bring you up with full of love, and care. One day, they gonna be separated because of various issues. Will you leave your parent ? Or support their point and do your rights for the family ? Let me tell you the fact. All you gonna think about is " Im stressed with this effing family like this" Ill bet with you, you gonna feel that way. Why did i say this ? Well, Were HUMAN. Remember. We gonna see the big picture when after we realise our mistake. This is facts. Not a story i make to make you feel "Urghh!"

You will never believe unless you seen it. I see this thousand and zillions time. Thats is the facts. thats why i dare enough to writes those facts and share with you. the message im about to show you is this , no matter how bad they are, how awful they had been, you had to respect them. May people look at us as a naughty whipper , as most rebellious person, as long as you know your heart is true, so thats the light you should be running towards to. Ignore what they say, ignore what they see. Trust your heart and mind. Make them work together. Dont ever separate them. Once separated, your heart feels the pain ..

Smoke. Drunk. Satisfactions.

Smoke like nobody cares. Drunk like the world is yours. Satisfy yourself like you flying high.

People around you. Stares at you. Stares at your fame. Stares at your name. Stares at your wallet. Stare at your items. Stare at your branded bag. Envy towards you. Feel like getting closer to you. Making their name rises. Make your name drop. They leaves you after you been a beggar. They would tell you that youre useless. You will be sitting on the ground and couldn't rise up. The only thing you could do is, sit there and break down.

Thats the real thing. Thats what people said. That's what life should be. When everything disappeared, the only left is your naked body. The only left were blood splatters.

What i was about to present to the whole universe is that, be a wise man. Don't be a desperate person who running for fame. Anyone can eventually said that they friend with you sincerely. But wait, did you even read their mind ? Did you even know what their heart says ? No right. So how can you assume that they are telling the truth ?

The most hilarious about mankind is that, They are actually super ridiculous. Why did i say that? Because, its super ridiculous if you tend to get very jealous toward somebody who didnt even have a penny. Didnt even have a castle. And the most stupid thing is, THEY DIDNT HAVE A AWESOME LOOKS. Isnt it like a stupid effing joke ? Precisely. I dont understand what exactly mankind wanted. They dont want us to be happy but they also dont want us to be sad. Damn, this is confusing.

They can eventually get angry, but why cant us ? They mindfucked us, and why cant we hack in theirs too ? They beat us till we bleed, and why cant we do that too? Let me answer for you this question. Lets just be cool, since we are matured enough. Let them do what they please. Because ill bet with cha, that one day, you will be sitting on the most comfortable chair with popcorn and coca cola in your hand. You gonna watch an epic movie playing infront of your eyes in 3D. Amazing right ? (: I know it sure will be. I seen it once. Its super amazing(: That movie youre will be watching is called "K-A-R-M-A". The time and day is not yet set, so be patience.

those walls

" You know youre my saving grace, I hope it wont fade away. I still see the halo in you"

Seems like gravity getting stronger till it pulls me on the ground again. But im still gonna raise like a skyscraper. Im not gonna surrender. Im not gonna put my guns down. i know i still can go through shits once again in the dark.

Thank you "bloods" for making me feel unfitted. Making me remembering those lullaby. The lullaby which have the black history. Which were never bring me the light. The light towards future.

I really hope one day i could be the princess marrying the knight than the prince. Love cant bring you far. Love cant make your stomach full. Love cant buy you a car. Love can buy you glass slipper. I let HIM control my life. I doesnt wish to hold things on my hand. Because i know, whatever we expected would never became reality. Being in a relationship with the one you dont love, its alright i think. Maybe you could forget about the man you love (':

Aku sayang kau sangat sangat. But i think, life should move on. Yes its a heartache, but its ALRIGHT !(:

Yes you

" There i was again tonight ,

Forcing laughter, fake a smile.

Walls of insincerity , shifting eyes and vacancy.

Vanished when i saw your face.

All i can say is it was enchanted to meet you " - Taylor Swift

I wonder why you cant accept me. I wonder why you decided not to turn back. I wonder why you given me those reply. I sometimes wonder, have you ever think of me like how i often thinks about you. I dont know the reason why, whenever somebody ask me questions which a lady wanted, my head struck with your name, your appearance, your smile, your laughter and your eyes. The way you stare at me. The way you hold my hand. And the way... you give me forehead kisses :')

I dont know the reason why im posting about you again. I dont know the reason why im doing this once again. And the funny part is , i looked pathetic. I think, you already throw all about me aye. But ill bet, you cant erase me from your heart. Because i live in your life for 7 months. How i wish i could run back to you. Im drifting away. Drifting very far.

I wasnt look like a monkey anymore (: Who keep on jumping or running towards the phone and happily read the Morning messages which were sent by you. Now it seems; every moment my phone rang, i would leave it tills it stop ringing. Because ill bet; it wasn't from you anymore. its from the crooks whom begging for satisfactions.

I must accept the facts that now you were the one who walking away and i were the one under the rain. The rain which ran down the cheeks and scratch the heart. I got one pathetic story which happen to me last week.

I was making a hot milo for my aunt that night. I was stirring the milo powder with hot water slowly. I suppose to put in the sweetened milk ; but i accidentally put in the coffee. I doesnt know what im thinking, but what i know my mind played-back a scene where you and me were fighting. I kept on stirring till at one sec; i look at the the drink , and it turns EYEEEEEEEEEEEW.

My face were like ( -.- ) Tak coooooooool eh.

You know , everything i do , even when im in the MRT reminds me of you. Yes you.

Maybe one day i should propose you in front of everybodeh right ? :P So that you know IHEARTBEATYOU alot. Hah, what am i thinking.

" Sudikah awak menerima saya kembali ke dalam kehidupan awak ? "

:P " WOAH ! Awi dalam sembilu. Aku jiwang siot ! " - shaheizy sam

Salutations Personas.

Yes those moment

"A lady who walks on the aisle, with her chin up and and her confident up high. Looking very vain on her face but bunch of flowers decorated in her heart. A man who took her for granted ; let her dreams falls in the drain." - Enchanted
A man running for a girl is common. But a woman running for a man is a challenge. Dont let her wait just because you know she will. In life, everyone can fake. But at one moment she actually speaks the truth. Just like painting. The picture which were painted, is a story untold. Its just a painting which with fiction colours. But if we search for the reason , the truth reveals.
Sometimes in life, we should think about whats the best. If you think that the best you could do, think again. Because sometimes you can ruin your life. I loath reality. certain moment , i just feel like i want to have a fantasy life. Wheres butterfly were flying sucking my nectar, fly with freedom, with love everywhere. But sadly, everything became an ugly painting.
Looking at those things which were leaving one by one pulls my knee down and make me breaks into tears. HAH, im not gonna cry anymore. The cute little angel who you use to throw, became a stranger which you will never figure out.
Now, im that BITCH you call a brat. I gonna wear that red nail polish, with red lipstick stick on her lips and a 3 inch high heels. Im not gonna let people look down on me anymore. Never will. Im a big girl.