I waited

Dear mama ;

I had waited for hours for your wish for my birthday . But you didnt text me at all . Or even call me . I waited for you like a stupid kid . I remembered my childhood time . I was sitting next to the phone ; and waited for you to call me and wish me HAPPY BIRTHDAY . But you forgotten . Then i decided to call you . But now ; everything changes . I never call you ; i just wanna know ; how much you love me ; like you always said you love me so much . Till now ; then i get to know how "big" is your love . I am not just dissapointed ; but im hurt ; im sad ; i felt that world has no more meaning towards it .

I had been pondering ; what have i done ? Why am i here ? Mama ; although there thousand words of hatred i said ; the truth is ; i do love you . But why didnt you do the same ? Remember when you fought with sister ? When you cry ; i wipe away your tears . When you shout ; i fight away your fears . I still held on your hand through all of that years . But when you re-patched with her ; you forgotten about me . Mama ; i didnt ask for much ; i just need you . Do you know how much i need you ?

I know ; thousands drop of tears also , i will never let you love me . But mama ; i did my best to make you proud . But it seems like you just looking away . You always said ; my words are full of lies ; but do you even ponder about yourself after that ?

Mama ; i thought after i'm out of your womb ; im would be the happiest girl in the world . But you proof me wrong . You didnt answer my questions . But its okay mama ; i'll thrive . Although you always look up on him or her . Its okay , i still love you , sincerely from my heart . I hope one day ; you feel my presence .

With Love ;

Your Daughter .

thankyou

I had the best day of my life .

Thankyou for the wishes (:

What am i to you ?

Okay ; im here to fight for what i think is best . I just need you to answer one question ;

What am i to you ..? Thats all . I wonder what would you answer .

Ihatethis . Iknowright . Bye .

Here goes nothing ~

Here goes nothing .

Sometimes i get confuse ; how to choose a path yow ? HELLO jerks ; im 15 ! Let me spell it for you ; F-I-F-T-E-E-N ! Let me repeat ; FUCKING FIFTEEN ! Get it ? No ? You dont ? Bang your head on the wall . Get it now ? No ? Well ; you a jerk ! Fuckyou laa !

Tired of playing drama . WOOOO DRAMA ! What drama you playing ? Chinese Oprah ? No ? Ohh okay ; Is it a bollywood masti ? No also ? Well ; see .. I'm tired of guessing your stupid " GUESS WHAT ?!" games . Its bored -.- it does not \m/ my ass off .

What ? You showing faces ? Fake smile ? Oh no ? You showing true sweet smile ? Well ; i think stop your POKER FACE ; DOG ! -.- Its irritating . You know it ? yes ; you know right . Okay ; lets get it straight . I'm back to my points ; I'M SICK AND TIRED OF THIS ; I GONNA KICK YOUR ASS UP HIGH ! And here goes ; I ...... BREANNA ... LIVE TO PLEASE HERSELF and NOT you . Thankyou (:

Before you judge people ; better walk through the aisle of hell and run through miles of burning fires before you come to them and gives shits . Atleast ; show some respect .

Damn you ; jerks !

I'm became stronger

As day past by ; im getting stronger . You leave scars ; i break down . But i stand up ; i know what im fighting for ~

Die

I'm about to lose my mind . all this moment , you been using me for your own good . I thought you been there to help me , but the reality was it suppose to be inverted . I guess , people would rather die then looking at you and let you slash them day by day. Sometimes , i thought I'm the most lucky one . But as i think , i was the most " fortunate " one. At a few moments , i thought everyone were the best ,but as eyes wide open , i was wrong . You people backstab me , and leave me in darkness . I had to find my way back home , where lights were flashing . maybe i was born to be bad . Or i was born to be like this . Helpless . They always thought that I'm the badest one ,but the fact , i wasn't . I was being myself , that was what i born to be . I'm not a slut , don't ever say i am . You make me insane , that's why i did the same . You make me down , but i boost myself and be proud of myself . I stand by myself . I did not need pamper , i don't need your applause . Cause it just a lie . I can stand for myself . I swear i can , but if i fall , i will build my own wheelchair and continue striving . You bathed me with blood tears , you bathed me with heartless stuff , but lastly , im born perfect . I'll show you what's battle is . I'll show you , what rights means . I know , i can stand , i know i can shake it . Wait for it .

seriously fuckz

If you making the girl like your dog , its better you stop . Do you know how hurtful is it . The girl had no where to go , with no parents around , no siblings too , and you take her just to make her as your slave . Ohh god ! How I wish , you chocked and die . Come on , realise . Realise how hurt she was . How many tears she fall for her fate . You letting her feel more of suffering . She need a life . How can a person sit and became a doll each day . And you said she a burden to your stress. Isn't it sound ridiculous . You may look nice , but the way you treat her is unacceptable . I may be bad , but I'm perfectly good at everything. I don't need a fucks of you to be proud of her . She can stand for herself with no one at side . I know she is better thaan your son or daughter. I'll pray for the best . I know she's fucking perfect . She may not be perfect like you people , but I know , she had a perfect heart inside . Not like bunch of motherfuckers like you . Say wow . I'm done . This woman , someday , show you , what's life and what is peeservering call .