I Need A Break please .

Seriously i need a break for all this shits .
With all the fucking maniacs you given me . No trust . Isnt i done whatever you want [?] Whatelse you want [?] get out [?] I will . After he get a home . So please ; give me some peace babe . Seriously . I'm begging you for mercy .
Sayaa perlu awak ! You know ; without you two days ago ; my brain hurts . I was thinking about cigarettes all the time . Sob`sob . Sorry sayang ; if i dissapointed you by the thinking of having that . Didnt mean to :(
Some moments ; i just wanna burn all my past . And start anew . I don't know how . Seriously :/
" If i'm dead now ; I'm no longer a Virgin . Because Life in the world ; fucked me up oready " -.-"