Must I be Happy ? ; Or HeartBroken ?

Went Hospital just now . To open - up my cast . Wooot Woooot ! Me okaayhh - zeeeyy oreadyy . But it make me confuse . Must I smilee or look down & cryy ? Why am i askingg ? Let me tell euu why .

Well .. yesturdae my real mum saedd she cant sent me tuhh the hospital . Although i told her about it 3 daes ago .

She saedd " Sorry lynne . Mama cant go withh euu . Nobody can replace in my work ."

I saedd " But i thought eu sae eu can sent me tuhh the hospital after i tell euu advance 3 daes ."

She saed " Eu must understnd me . If i am nort working ; who want tuhh support me . I am a single mother ."

That is what she sae . My heart hurts . It break into pieces . I am speechless . Why I'm hurt ? Because twice she sae she cannort . Andd the ferst tyme she saed " Next tyme tell me in 3 dae in advance " Andd i did the second tyme ; but her reply was that . Ohmygod ! Only God know how i felt . It just so pain . Lyke a glass crackk slashhes ur heart . When its my big brother & sister ; it just take seconds . But me ; none . I became lyke dhs ONCE . cant even once she sent me tuhh the HOSPITAL . If withh guys ; woaahh ! So fast . But childd . Ohh Shits ! So hardd . Sometymes it make me thinkk .. Where am i from ? Why does she treatingg me dhis wae ? Tuh make me Independent ? Independent ?! Eu kidding me ! Didnt i have been independent enoughh ?! I didnt even ask for money lyke children now-a-daes if i dont have . I never askk expensive stuff . I never ask for alot of things . I only ask one thingg ; LOVE . Where is it ? Money cant give anythingg . I just wan that . That 4 letters . Just 4 letters .
Woaahh ! So hurt . Veryvery . Cant stop thinking about it . Andd lastlyy , my aunt-mumsy sent me . She make me smile brightly ; so happyly . Wishh i am her real daughter . Where my real mum go ? Gone . I toldd her tree daes ago . But that is the reply . Ohmy ! So pain .
In the hospital just now has a heart-warming situation . There is a family . Their childd were injuredd . Hys leg was cast andd hys hand was bandage . The childd criedd . As eu know ; hys only about 5 to 6 years old . Hys mother was pampering hym . Give hym courage & Give hym a warmth touchh . I staree . Dreaming that was me . If that was me . I swear i wouldd not let it go away from me forever . In my whole lyfe ; never felt that . Ohmy ! Cant stop throwing tears when remembering the past . It just so goood tuhh see them together . It seems happyness occured . Withh LOVE & CARE .
Andd now ; Backk tuhh the Question . Must i be HAPPY or HEARTBROKEN ?