Journey.

 Hey readers ! feeling down today ? Feeling devastated ? Feeling useless ? Ever thought why ? What i mean why is that, ever thought of why must you feel all these even when you know you can do something to make you smile and stand up strong again ? Isnt it ?

 Always appreciate what you have. Dont always think what you dont have. People will never stop hurting your feeling. People wont stop judging. People will never be satisfy. All you have to do is, walk your life like a flowing river. If you think, crying out loud can help, so be it. Do it. Dont kill yourself slowly by that broken heart. You know yourself well, you know exactly what you feel but all those motherfuckers didnt know. So jolly-well do what you think you want to do. Listen to your heart, although its being place on the left, always know, its always right. If your heart hurt so much, use the power of your brain.

And always remember this 3 things in life so youre be forever successful.
(1) Be strong when youre weak.
(2) Be brave when youre scared.
(3) Be humble when youre victorious.

Life is journey. Dont just set goals. Set your route as well.

Good Day ! :)

It kills me slowly.

 You know women. Women usually have a very gentle heart, a loving heart although how aggressive they gonna show themselves. Attitude of being aggressive usually because of these girls dont want to show their weakness. Well same goes to me actually.

What actually kill me the most is, when i had given the full priority and trust towards somebody which i can i say, i care for, the person will eventually take advantage about it. After the incident, they will be on their knees and begging you for forgiveness. And yeah, girls will give the second chance. Sometimes i wonder, will this going to repeat again..

I know i said i already forgiven,  but it simply cant be forgotten. Every moment when my heart breaks a little, all the feeling going to mix up and everything will eventually cocked up. CHAOS. Its just so hurt knowing somebody you cared actually takes advantage towards your kindness. And the next minute, you going to be the one who suffers, suffers in silent. Why is this happening ? Why am i always in this life ? And why on earth i am still stuck there ? Yes, there.

It even kills me when i heard all those bitches names. its not im jealous, its because its hurting. Its like, HEY YOURE MINE BUT YET YOURE TELLING ME THAT YOU HAD DONE THIS AND THAT WITH THOSE BITCHES. Frankly, at first i dont care at all, but as day passes by, when nobody listen to my story and nobody is there holding my hand throughout my raining & storming days, that feeling of "I dont care" changes into glass. Glass which gonna break and break and cant be fix. it seems like im so sensitive, im so terribly traumatize, i am so depressed. its going back to square. I cried my heart out, i scream, i punched, but nothing works. All i ever got is that, bruises and heartbreaks. It seems like im dying every seconds and minutes of my life.

Its seems so hurtful that nobody is there listening to what youre unhappy about, listening to what you had to say and even when you are not the "main" one. Saying to your own girl about other girls flawlessness eventually gonna make your girl go wild. And she will start depressing herself with the flaws she had. She will of cause thinks that she is not good enough and the fucking part is, SHE GONNA BE INSECURE. When that happens, dont fucking blame her when she did the same towards you.

What would you eventually feels when youre open-minded with your guy and he just get over-reacting. Like example; he going to say "Woah this girl has a nice curves" And you were there, looking at what the girl have and you dont. Its feels as though "Am i fucking invisible?" ; or maybe "You said i am your all, but the fact is you are looking at the other bitch". Subsequently, everything you said is actually made the girl feels like she is being lied to.

i understand that guys cant resist this, but if a girl can fucking ignore those motherfuckers out there, why cant they ? And simply this guys maturity levels still down there, all they say is "Long term relationship, long term relationship" but the fact is, they kept on hurting those girls. And the end of the story, girls is the one who get the blame for leaving those guys. Come on people, dont live to hurt people can you ?

Why is it so hard to listen to other people story ? And why is it so hard to pay attention and just look in the people eyes and show that youre listening ? I cant understand this term at all. If we can do it, why cant they do it ? Why always care about your heart breaks ? Why dont you think about other people heartbreaks ?

The feeling when you had nobody, and youre only source of expressing your expression is that one and only person, but that person just simply can be bothered ? yeah, it kills me bro. It hurt me alot. You would never understand, because all you think of is you and yourself. You never felt the suffering that i been through, trying to find my own survival in my daily life.

Please show me that youre a man. Show me that you can take responsibilty towards me. Because im the girl, who suffers and shed too much tears in her life without no bitch ever known.

so, THANK YOU :)

HEY SONS, MAMA IS BACK.

And so, after a long period of time; im posting again ^^ YAY. Im so happy that i got my account back, as all this while shits keeps happening and i dont know where to pour it too.

As you can see, im not really moving on. Why am i saying this ? Because im doing nothing productive daily. Really nothing. Absolutely nothing. Sometimes i feel a little disappointed with myself. For the things i had done consciously or unconsciously. Its seems not right every time. Its like nothing is right in front of their eyes. Sometimes i stop, and ponder to myself, what on earth i had done wrong? And why are they acting that way ?

So i guess, ill end here (: ill post something real soon. And always remember guys, dont be afraid of people surround you. Be scared towards what you chosen your life going to be.

ALLAHUAKBAR

Oh Allah,

Kuatkan lah aku. Sakit hatiku melihat dia semakin jauh. Sakit hatiku melihatnya mengejarnya. Mudah mudahan, di suatu saat, dia akan bahagia seperti sediakala.

Oh Teman, maafkan lah aku jikalau aku tidak merelakan kau dengannya. Dia telah mencuri hatiku. Tetapi, pada suatu saat, Insya'allah kau akan mendapatkannya. Dengan rela aku melepaskannya.

Haish

Just as if they know, what am i going through. I wanna be a princess living happy ever after. But look me now ?

Why must i sacrifices ? Sacrifices for family ? For friends ? Or whatever occasions? Why must it be me ? I know , im understanding and easy to go with. BUT , have you forgotten im still a human ?

Life getting older, and its getting harder. Gravity is pulling down my legs.

ALL i can say, PLEASE : I NEED SUPPORT :')

If i were in your shoe

When the whether is hot, everybody complaints. When the whether is too cold, you people complaint again. When you got big house, again you people want bigger house. When you could have everything you want, you throw it just like that.

Thats the reason why we were call HUMANS. We will never satisfied with the things we had. All we think about is more. More and More and More. Have you even wonder, when one day you gonna die. Everything will be gone from your effing life. Everything people, everything. Family, money, cars, swags and even your Iphone. This things wont bring you together in graveyard. Nobody gonna hear you scream. Nobody gonna hear you cry. And nobody gonna help you in there. All is there is you , and the white cloth. If you did good in earth, you gonna bring your good deeds along. The good deeds gonna help you later in future.

Your parents bring you up with full of love, and care. One day, they gonna be separated because of various issues. Will you leave your parent ? Or support their point and do your rights for the family ? Let me tell you the fact. All you gonna think about is " Im stressed with this effing family like this" Ill bet with you, you gonna feel that way. Why did i say this ? Well, Were HUMAN. Remember. We gonna see the big picture when after we realise our mistake. This is facts. Not a story i make to make you feel "Urghh!"

You will never believe unless you seen it. I see this thousand and zillions time. Thats is the facts. thats why i dare enough to writes those facts and share with you. the message im about to show you is this , no matter how bad they are, how awful they had been, you had to respect them. May people look at us as a naughty whipper , as most rebellious person, as long as you know your heart is true, so thats the light you should be running towards to. Ignore what they say, ignore what they see. Trust your heart and mind. Make them work together. Dont ever separate them. Once separated, your heart feels the pain ..

Smoke. Drunk. Satisfactions.

Smoke like nobody cares. Drunk like the world is yours. Satisfy yourself like you flying high.

People around you. Stares at you. Stares at your fame. Stares at your name. Stares at your wallet. Stare at your items. Stare at your branded bag. Envy towards you. Feel like getting closer to you. Making their name rises. Make your name drop. They leaves you after you been a beggar. They would tell you that youre useless. You will be sitting on the ground and couldn't rise up. The only thing you could do is, sit there and break down.

Thats the real thing. Thats what people said. That's what life should be. When everything disappeared, the only left is your naked body. The only left were blood splatters.

What i was about to present to the whole universe is that, be a wise man. Don't be a desperate person who running for fame. Anyone can eventually said that they friend with you sincerely. But wait, did you even read their mind ? Did you even know what their heart says ? No right. So how can you assume that they are telling the truth ?

The most hilarious about mankind is that, They are actually super ridiculous. Why did i say that? Because, its super ridiculous if you tend to get very jealous toward somebody who didnt even have a penny. Didnt even have a castle. And the most stupid thing is, THEY DIDNT HAVE A AWESOME LOOKS. Isnt it like a stupid effing joke ? Precisely. I dont understand what exactly mankind wanted. They dont want us to be happy but they also dont want us to be sad. Damn, this is confusing.

They can eventually get angry, but why cant us ? They mindfucked us, and why cant we hack in theirs too ? They beat us till we bleed, and why cant we do that too? Let me answer for you this question. Lets just be cool, since we are matured enough. Let them do what they please. Because ill bet with cha, that one day, you will be sitting on the most comfortable chair with popcorn and coca cola in your hand. You gonna watch an epic movie playing infront of your eyes in 3D. Amazing right ? (: I know it sure will be. I seen it once. Its super amazing(: That movie youre will be watching is called "K-A-R-M-A". The time and day is not yet set, so be patience.