Lifeys

Lifes . HAHA .

Hilarious ? Awesome ? Karma ?

Unpredictable . Crying ? Laughing ? Anger ? HAKs . Seriously unpredictable (:

Kita susah siapa mahu heran ? Kubur sendiri pegang paa . Siapa mahu tolong dari A - Z ? Sujud kaki manusia pun , heran tak ada heran mesti ada punya .

Harsh huh ? Hahhaa :P Random leii .

You given me no lullaby ; and now you wanna me to have a retarded retro music and steal all my Rock&roll music . Oh God ! I can die with an open eyes !

IM RUNNING AWAY .

I thought i told you

Isnt i told you tht my heart is very fragile ? Or should i say , a girl's heart is .

You said that you wont hurt me anymore ?

OIII ! BANGON ! AKU SAYANG KAU ; KAAU TAHU TK ? Aku sanggop setier dengan kao . Didnt you know imma bitch ? That would go around and hurt people feelings ? Why didnt i hurt you ; BECAUSE I FUCKING LOVE YOU ! -.- AHHHHH !

BYEEEEEEEEE !

Human

These is human facts ;

When they found their love ones ; the broke it . When they had happiness ; they ruin it . When they had swagger ; they pimp on it . When they had money in the bank ; they burn it .

Theres something about life ; that had been left untold . Either in the heart or in the physical . As an example ; God will never tell what He had done in your body . He would never tell what gonna happen next . He left in untold ; until the day when He decided to show you ; what He had arrange . OPPS ! Surprised party for you . Nobody would appreciate it ; until when it gone forever . Whatever they said ; is right .. In the world ; nobody had it perfect ; we eat more veggie but the Americans eat more meat . They're pale ; we're coloured . People intend to step on others when the person is so well pieces them .

The question is ; What we suppose to do on Earth ?

They cant see you

We laugh ; we smile ; we enjoy ; we play ; we had fun .. But the weird part is , we'll never know that the person we talked to is actually hurting badly inside . We cant even realise that the person beside you actually wailing loudly in the heart and trying to ask for favors . We never know that the person actually intended to kill themselves . We never did . Because ; we cant read what is kept in the inside .

Everyone had their own personality ; either in the inside or the outside . Don't know whether its bad or it good . And angel or an devil . Black path or white path . Red lights or green lights . Its the matter of understanding . Being a very good lecturer won't bring you anywhere if you kept on talking and talking but nothing came in change . Theres goes to me ; im typing and typing but had made nothing to be reality . It just a matter of expressing and let the world read my silly post .

Some people is seeking for attention without they realising that they are very irritating ; but despite that ; theres even people who seek attention because they ought to ; being forced to . Because they cant think of anything else . As you can see ; thousand of people committed suicide because they thought that ; that is the only solution . A medicine to their cure . A panadol to their headache . Some people want their backgrounds to be left untold so that could maintain their reputations . But until when ? Sooner or later ; they will find out . Just like an example ;

A rude child shouted at an old man ; who walk with a stick . He kept it as a secret till one day ; he did again to an old woman ; everyone saw it . Reputations drop . negative mind set . Its all around everyone's head .

What i am trying to bring down is that ; world is for awhile . Realise your mistakes . Make dreams came true . Fuck your obstacles . Make it a awesome maze . Being a freak ; wasnt the issue . but being a ill'brat , is the big one .

I wanna tell the world that I LOVE MYSELF VERY MUCH ^^ I swear i did . I'm happy with my life . I'm happy with what i got . I can't cry anymore . And i know , its time to show the world my wide smile ! I'm proud of myself for standing with my feet rather than begging for people's knee and beg for favours . I'm beautiful in my way , i know i am . Im better than the others . Im fortunate than the others . Im awesome than the others . And i know im capable rather than others (: Its better to put high expectations into a normal expectations . throw the wide smiles on people cheeks and party rock every time . Dont ever forget about God ; who makes your life perfect . Terimakasih Ya Allah (: Now ; i found my path ; my lights ; my decisions .

Mashiryana ; You the best boobs i never had (: I love the way you are . Thankyou aallah ; for gving me a great friend like her . May we always be together (:

Sunshine

I thought i wanna make things right ; but it seems that theres nothing i could do . I thought of making this blog bright ; and its seems there nowhere else i could write this into .

Theres somethings which love once dont understand ; couldnt understand ; could not make up ; and could not figure out . Oh yeah ! I almost forgot ; im 15 . What can a 15 year old do right ?

Theres is a reputations ; a positions ; a role which everybody got . Conscious-surrounding ; care-giving ; love and importantly respect towards one another .

They said ; i had no sense of humanity which made human being feels as if ; im the baddest . AND HEY ! Welcome to my silly life . Made a wrong turn ; i cant take it back . Being somebody ; huh .. what can i be ? -.- Their eyes ; said nothing but just the word of pathetically . Searching for my own sunshine ; but nowhere to be found . I made a decision ; but they given me a second thought .

Maybe they dont understand ; maybe they try to understand ; or maybe they refuse to understand . But let me tell the world ; Nobody knows about another party ; but the other party know themselves freaking motherfucking well .

I ; proudly present myself ; a 15 year old "kid" ; CAN MAKE A DECISION ON THEIR OWN ! I hate motherfuckers who would show my path . I hate motherfuckers who plan my path . And the worst part is ; i fucking grannyfreaking motherfuckers HATE when they spit fucktards useless sunshine into my face . Sorry if theres to much vulgarities . But that shows how serious i am and how i HATE when that happens . Maybe for now ; im in an insanity mood-swings ; but im know where i am . Which grave im standing ; and i had pride . I'll show the world ; i can stand with MY LEGS & FEET !

Thankyou for reading this ridiculous post ; Salutations .

I donnoe when

As time past ; I FEEL SOOOOOOOOO ; CHICKEN BACKSIDE -.-

I can die with my eye open . But why ? I still don't understand why . Isnt that enough ?

I just want you to love me ; but you always shouted at me .

You said im a slut ; you said im useless ; you said im a brain'dead ; you said im cheap ; NOW WHATELSE ? Let me say this ; I STILL HAVE A VALUE ! I still havee value .. yes i still haveee ..

I dont know who to talk to ; only by typing i can be express whatever been inside . I dont know whereelse to post ; so i just post here . My wonder world . Where everyone is reading ; everyone know my stories . Sorry ; i just can't take it .

I may be bad ; but i'm a mind thinker . You cant see that right ? Why ? You too buzy with all the motherfucking thing that the world given you . What am i to you ? A cute doll ? A soft toy ? Ohh yeah ; just remember ; YOUR BITCH . Right ? Isnt that what you said ? That so sweet of you (: I'M A FAKE ! READ THAT LINE AGAIN ! I'M A FAKE !

I fake my smile ! I fake my LIFE ! I fake my motherfucking heart ! I'm a fake . I wasn't being happy all along . I wasn't have an awesome life . I wasn't being cheerful behind those doors . I WASNT ! I'm sorry if i said ; i''m stressfree ; i'm sorry when i said my family is awesome - they given me full loads of loves hearts ; i'm sorry if i said i'm the cheerful person ever . I'm sorry to whom i lied to . Its just that ; i'm selfish . I'm jealous ; How can you people get such an loving family . I don't care if i were poor ; i can earn my own money . I don't care if i had to wear such a ridiculous looking shirt . I don't care if you feed me plain rice everyday . I DONT CARE ! I just want you to care about me ; love me ; kiss me goodnight and say that I'm your little awesome princess .

You given high hopes ; fat hopes - but now its ruin . I do it for you ; yes for you . But you didnt seem to care . My expectations had been an destroy intentions . And i'm slowly being lost again .. I thought i found my light ; but i started to realise ; that wasn't the light ..

- Dia tidak memahami aku .